Abusive Husband

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I grabbed the counter to help myself get up. Isaac was laying on the bed. I walked to the kitchen. I wanted to kill Isaac. Oh my God. I can't controll myself. I grabbed a knife. Isaac should be on his senses by now, I thought.

I walked to my room with the knife. I couldn't feel my hands. they controlled them selves. " Ally stop! " Isaac yelled.

I began to cry. " help me " I said

he took the knife. he now knew he hurt me.

he got in the shower with me. he stuck his fingers in my nostril and he hugged me in the water.

" I am so sorry. " he kissed my forehead as we stood under the water. I kissed his chest. " I love you so much " he whispered to me as he hugged me around the waist.  I stayed quiet and cried. " babe? " I was mad. but I loved him. " Isaac I am so tired of living like this I can't anymore. " I said crying as I let go and put a towel over my body. he turned off the water and out a towel over his waist. " Ally " he said as he grabbed my arm and pulled me to him. " I know I've done so much on the wrong side. but look what I've done for you aside taking away your childhood when you were 15. I gave you a family. I love you babe. please don't walk out on us. not now. please. " he begged as his eyes began to water up. " look at my face. look at my body Isaac. you finished me! I'm bruised everywhere! you did this to me! I'm not your property! " I yelled crying as I walked in my room. he followed me to the closet. " It's 3 in the morning and you've got me begging for you in my towel. Just stop! I'm sorry! I really am. " he leaned me to the wall and got close to my face as we both began to breathe hard. his lips got closer to mine. " its over Isaac. " I said softly as I cried. he backed up and put his hands on his head and yelled. " Do you want me to kill myself Ally!? Is this what you want? " he grabbed his gun. " Isaac stop! " I took the gun away and he fell to the floor and I hugged him. " I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. " he said crying.