Keeping Secrets

The Darkest Hour

Summers Pov:

Night 🌚⭐️🌙

I couldn't sleep. How could I, my mother is dead, my father hates me and after 8 months of me and my boyfriend being together he broke up with me. I mean it's 4:00am and I'm listening to Lana del Rey's sad voice blasting through my head phones.

🎧"don't make me sad, don't make me cry. Sometime life is not enough and the road gets tough I don't why." 🎧

She's seems sad, I can relate to her in a lot of things but me I'm not sad I'm depressed. I drive my depression to the max overthinking every single thing I do and in the end I always come to the same conclusion. I get up grab the razor and watch the blood fall off from my wrist. I'm not good enough I'll never be good enough for anyone that's why people are always leaving me. Tears stream down my face as I cry silent sobs. It's like I'm screaming but no one can hear me. I watch as my tears mix with the blood making it more watery and realize its time to stop. I climb back In bed and cry myself to sleep.

Morning 🌞🌝☀️

Briiiiiiiiing briiiiiiiiiiiim briiiiiiiiing

"Ugh" I hear my alarm clock off and wonder what the hell is going on

" Summer get you ass up and out of this house and go to school" My father yells

"Oh, shit" I mutter under my breath. I totally forgot I had school today. Did I have any homework? meh who cares ill do it when I get there.

"And turn that damn alarm clock off already you ignorant piece of shit"

I ignore my fathers words by turning on the radio and blast the music as loud as I can. I go toward my closet and pick out something to wear. I put on a neon pink tank-top making my pale skin look slightly darker and pull on black high waisted shorts. I find my converse and start lacing them up when I see my scars.

"Ugh" I say once again.I can't go to school in this so I make a quick wardrobe change. I change my pink tank top to a black one and throw on a a plaid red sweater and leave my black shorts. I change my shoes to my red vans pull my hair up in a bun. Putting my hair in a bun makes me see my puffy eyes, droopy checks and dry lips. To help I put on red lipstick, eyeliner, mascara and a little bit of blush. Then I head out. I go grab a banana from the kitchen and head out. I get in my red Ferrari and start making my way towards hell. Now would be a good time to mention that I'm rich. My dad is a retired lawyer and he is still getting big money. We live in a mansion with 36 floors and 58 different rooms. We have a guest house, a workout house, a golf courses , an Olympic size pool, a tennis court and a humongous garden. My friends there all rich to, so nobody ever gets jealous. Speaking of friends, I finally arrive at school and spot spring's pink BMW and park right next to hers. I walk up the steps of st.branings high school and prepare myself for the stares, compliments and questions. See me and my friends we are the popular one's, not that I care but to spring it's basically her everything.

"Hey" I hear someone whisper in my ear. I jump and turn around to see who decided to scare the living crap out me. I see it's this insanely gorgeous boy. He's tall with brown golden hair and has the perfectest shade of gray eyes. Okay so he might be gorgeous but that does not give him the right to scare me like that.

"Okay who the hell do you think you are, you don't go around scaring some random stranger!!!" I practically yell

"Whoa, calm down it's okay I'm Wes Turk I'm new here I was hopping some pretty girl like you would be able to show me around" I hear him say, but the only thing I can concentrate on is his last name Turk, Turk, Turk. I've heard that before and then it clicked Turk my ex Jay always was taking about his cousin Wes that was In Michigan.

" Um.... I don't think that would be such a good idea you see I think Your related to my recent ex jay, we broke up just last night " I tell him and what do you know speak of the devil and the devil appears.Except he's not the devil, to me he's the exact opposite. His heart is pure and my heart has blindsided his evil. I ache for him to hold me In his arms just one more time.

"Not this hoe, Wes there's so many hotter chicks inside" Jay says while avoiding me completely and steers Wes away from me. I snap back into reality and realize that he'll never love me again. He doesn't want me anymore. But there's a part if me that know he does, he is just hiding it. So if he hides it I'll hide better.

"My names summer by the way, pick me up at 6:00" I call out after Wes.

"Sure thing, pretty girl" he calls out and waves goodbye. As soon as I step inside tons of people start staring and talking to me

"Omg luv those vans"

"Is it true you and jay broke up"

"Will you go out with me?"

"Who does she think she is?"

"I Love your book bag"

"How did you do your hair"

"We're you just talking to Wes Turk? ugh your so lucky"

I finally make my way towards the maple tree where me and all my friends meet up at. Our school has this gigantic garden in the back with tons of hills but only one hill has a maple tree and we made sure that, was our spot. As I arrive I see everyone is doing last minute homework I sit down and do the same.

Springs Pov:

I see summer as she climbs up the hill. She looks so pretty even when she's wearing the plainest clothes ever but then I see she's wearing a plaid long sleeve shirt with the buttons undone. I know she has scars beneath that sweater. She may have everyone else fooled but me not at all, I know because I go through the same thing except not with cutting. I'm so tired everyone using me. So many people trick me into liking them and then they just use me. With boys it's the same thing none of them really love me they all just say they do not realizing that they don't. Anything any girl wants to hear is I love you but not me. I've heard those words over and over again now they have no meaning to me. I guess that's what happens when you give you heart to one that doesn't know how to take care of it.

Winters Pov:

Were all sitting In a circle everyone laughing and talking. But not me, I sit listen and observe. Everyone's stares at us with envy wishing that they were us, but the truth is it's not as glamorous as it seems. We have our fight and our ups and downs. People think that we all live in this one big perfect world where we can't get hurt. That's not true though, the truth is I think we're the most damaged of them all.

"What do you think winter?" I hear summer tell me

" Bout what?"

" Having an annual back to school party?"

"Oh yea totally, tonight?"

"Duh" I hear summer say. And as if right on cue the bell rings. We all go in our separate directions and start making our way towards class.

Autumns Pov:

I'm sit in class staring out the window. Mr. ravel goes on and on about the American Indian war which I literally give no shit about. I drone him out and lose my myself in my thoughts. My birthdays only in a couple months from now and I'll finally be 18. 18 the age where I am legally free. The age were I'm no longer considered a kid but an adult. I can't wait, as soon as I turn 18 I'm going on a road trip across the United States, I don't know where I'll end up but it'll be somewhere really amazing I think to myself. I feel someone tap my shoulder and I turn around to see who it is. It's the one and only Jay. He hands me a note and continues paying attention as if what he did never happened. I open the crumpled piece of paper and read:

I know I just broke up with summer but I really need your help. I'm still in love with her. I broke up with her and I didn't know how much she meant to me until I let her go. Now I know she was my everything she kept me whole and sane. Now she's going for my cousin please help me. I'm begging you. - Jay