The color of your voice

Own problems

At that night, Baekhyun couldn't help him much. Jongin was just way too tired to make any progress. And that's how Baekhyun took him by his arm, bringing him home.

"You didn't have to bring me home..."

Jongin said as the two boys approached the dorm. Baekhyun just shook his head.

"You need sleep Jongin I can't work like that."

Jongin rolled his eyes as he walked in and undressed his jacket and shoes. Baekhyun did the same and the taller waited for him.

"How about we train twice a week. I mean late training, extra training. And whenever you feel the need to, you can ask me for more lessons."

Baekhyun suggested and Jongin nodded. The others were asleep so they both spoke in a dimmed voice.

"Do you think that will be enough?"

He asked and Baekhyun gave him one of his soft smiles.

"You already are a great singer. You just have to learn how to come out of your shell and be more confident about what you can do. You learned that with your dancing. There is no difference."

Jongin didn't seem convinced. But Baekhyun just sighed.

"I believe in you. Besides, I can teach you a lot. Aaand if that is not enough, I basically have nothing to do so you can always just say that you want another lesson."

Again, Jongin wondered. Why was Baekhyun not busy? He had so many friends outside of Exo as well.
What was wrong?
He didn't dare to ask.

"Okay sounds fine."

The tall man finally said and they walked past the first few doors, stopping in front of his own.

"Could we... do it tomorrow?"

The younger asked and Baekhyun nodded.

"Tomorrow is Monday. How about Mondays and Thursdays? If that would be okay for you."

A small smile appeared on Jongins face as he nodded.

"You should smile more often, suits you well."

Baekhyun winked and kept walking down the hallway to his door. He unlocked it with a key and Jongin watched him, being unsure if he should ask or not.

"Hyung?"

Baekhyun turned, looking at him.

"Hm?"

"Can I ask you a question?"

"Go for it."

Jongin opened his mouth, but the words got stuck in his throat.

"Nothing. Good night!"

He choked out and vanished in his room.
Baekhyun shook his head and closed his door behind him. He put his phone on the charger and stretched before he started taking off his clothes to put on his sleeping pants.
He checked his phone for one last time. But he was left disappointed.
Halfheartly sending a good night message, knowing he wouldn't get a reply anyways.
With that, he put his phone aside and went to sleep.

Baekhyun woke up at 5 am because his alarm clock forced him to.
Tiredly, he walked over to his phone and turned it off.
Again, he checked his messages.
And again, he was left on read.
Baekhyun sighed and took his phone with him into the bathroom.
He undressed his pants, enjoying the freedom he just gained.

And as he stood there, warm water touching his skin, he felt safe.
He felt secure and warm.
Soft gasps leaving his mouth as he turned the heat up.
The water that came down was so hot, it burned his skin, leaving it a little red.
Baekhyun always loved the heat on his skin and how it affected his breathing.
It was about those little moments under the shower. They were his secret. The source of his strength.
That's why he always showered for an hour, sometimes longer.

Today it took him longer, as he started singing at some point. He was fully caught up in it. But at the end of the song, someone knocked.

"Hyung, we have to go."

It was Jongin. He was standing there for a while now, as he was sent by the others to get Baekhyun. He couldn't help but get lost by the way the older sang.
And he wished so deeply to be at this point.
But he wasn't.
He heard how the shower got turned off and backed away from the door. Of course Baekhyun came out half naked.

"Hey Jongin!"

He smiled and energetically walked past him. And Jongin shook his head in disbelieve. How could a person change so much over night? Did he gain the strength through sleep?
As the taller turned, he saw Baekhyuns back. Fully naked.

"HYUNG!"

He called out and hid his face in his hands. He was so ashamed to see his hyung like that. But Baekhyun stayed unbothered. He got dressed and then followed Jongin into the kitchen where they all ate together.

"Morning Baekhyun, had a nice shower?"

Jongdae asked, wiggling his eyebrows as if he meant to transport a nasty hidden message.

"I'm so sorry for you. Having Minseok but still thinking of masturbation under the shower."

Baekhyun snapped back, sighing a little before bursting a laughter.
Minseok glared at Jongdae and said person nervously eyed his toes.
Jongin glanced at Kyungsoo.
God that would be such a great way to start the day. Having a shower with Kyungsoo.
Jongins thoughts wandered some place dark until he saw Chanyeol grinning like an idiot.
They probably did shower together.
The younger now stared at his food, pushing it away. He did not want to eat anymore.
But Junmyeon looked at him with a burning gaze that Jongin thought only a mother had. Well, he was wrong.
Slowly, he ate a little of his rice to soothen Junmyeons mood while
Baekhyun ate his apple, checking instagram again.
He had another account to watch the stuff he was interested in.

"Dude are you following a fan account?"

Sehun asked and Baekhyun jumped inside.

"No. Not my real account. I uhm.. I..."

Baekhyun started stuttering and Jongin looked up. He noticed how uncomfortable Baekhyun was so he poked Sehuns side.

"Yah, Sehun you gained weight."

He said and Baekhyun looked at him thankfully. Sehun started argueing that he didn't but Jongin just glanced at Baekhyuns phone. And he swore he saw a picture of Yixing before Baekhyun closed instagram.

"Finish your food, we're running late."

Junmyeon said and Chanyeol groaned. But everyone finished and cleaned their place before they went to their practice room.