The color of your voice

Kept secret

Tuesday and Wednesday passed and Jongin and Baekhyun rarely talked to each other. Why would they? They both had way too much to do anyways. Jongin was training his voice to become better. He also tried to accept his “color” . But he soon noticed that it was still a long way to go.
Baekhyun spend a lot time on playing video games, sometimes training a little.

It was wednesday evening, as Baekhyuns phone rang.
It was him.

"Hey Baekhyun! I am so sorry that I didn't answer till now. How are you? What's the album doing?"

They talked for 3 hours straight until Baekhyun fell asleep at one point and the other ended the call.
They had talked a lot about serious stuff and the older boy on the other side of the line was glad to have Baekhyun in his life. He always encouraged him to keep going.
And actually.. at some point, every member experienced the help of Baekhyun.
But Baekhyun? He often felt lost. Not wanting anyone to know how lonely he actually was, he preferred it to keep quiet about his feelings. Like that, he was able to help others who believed he was the personification of happiness.

The morning came and Jongin stood up to stretch and shower.
As the water ran down his spine, sending a warm feeling to his heart, he had to think of Kyungsoo again. Oh how much he loved him. His cute little Kyungsoo.
He thought of his cute cheeks, his big shining eyes and his full pink lips.
Jongins hand moved further down as he imagined the smallers white skin, his soft tummy...

But someone knocked.
Jongin groaned and opened his eyes.

"What?"

"Jongin? Can I use your bathroom?"

It was Kyungsoos voice.
Jongins heart started beating like crazy.

"Come in, it's not locked."

He said and turned the water cold for a second. He didn't want Kyungsoo to see his boner.
The smaller came in, checking the taller out for a good minute while said one kept washing himself.
It was a win for him.
Was it?
He thought about it for a while. If Chanyeol kept doing his training, he would soon look better than Jongin.
He had to train harder.

Kyungsoo brushed his teeth and tried to fix his hair as Jongin came out of the shower. He was completely naked and grabbed the towel.
Kyungsoo glanced down for a second.
Jongin was just way too lost in his mind to care. To be honest, if he wasn't that messed up in his head at that point, he would never just be so chilled and grab himself a towel like it was the most normal thing ever.
But as he fixed it around his waist and looked up, he realized what he did.
Before he could shame himself to death, Kyungsoo let out an annoyed groan.

"Jongin? Could you help me?"

He asked and Jongin blinked. Then he looked at the brush in Kyungsoos hand. He wanted to fix his hair.
With a few simple movents of Jongin, Kyungsoos hair was perfectly styled.
Jongin was proud of himself and Kyungsoo thanked him, flashing him a bright smile.

A day that started like that could only get better.
Baekhyun thought so too as he looked at the latest message, telling him to sleep and rest well. There was a foto attached.
Baekhyun was melting of happiness.
So was Jongin.

As they sat at the kitchen table, they happily ate their breakfast in peace.
After that, they trained together as a group.
Baekhyun nearly forgot about the extra training and so did Jongin. Neither way, they ended up in the room together.

"How was your day?"

Baekhyun started and Jongin flashed him a smile.

"Great. In the morning, Kyungsoo came in while I was showering. He even checked me out!!"

Baekhyun clapped, being honestly happy for the other.

"I am glad you had him looking at your body. But please, how could he not look at your body? You are perfect."

Jongin smiled shyly.

"I also did his hair then!"

Baekhyun grinned a little.

"Chanyeol has to be careful~"

They both laughed slightly. Baekhyun wanted to tell him what happened this morning but he was unsure.
For 6 years, this had been a secret he kept to himself. Why ruin it now?
He chose to keep quiet.

"Wanna continue?"

Jongin nodded. They started warming up again and Baekhyun chose to keep his mood up today and to not make him feel uncomfortable in any way.

"How about we do something different today? We will just sing. Songs I pick, we will sing those together and like that we can work on your voice. Deal?"

Jongin smiled and nodded. Baekhyun chose “Been through”, due to various reasons.
And Jongin sang with Baekhyun together at first. He sang quieter than his hyung, but said person dimmed his voice, telling him to sing louder.
And so he did. And while he first felt uncomfortable, he soon grew to like his singing.
Baekhyun was happy to see him growing closer to his voice.
But he knew it was a far way to go until Jongin would finally like and accept it's color.

Next quest was parting the song. Baekhyun took the hardest parts and let Jongin try the rest.
His voice wasn't trained as much as Baekhyuns but he did pretty ok.
Baekhyun even nodded after it.

"You did okay on this."

To be honest, Baekhyun had a very high standart when it came to singing. So when Jongin did very good for others, it was okay for Baekhyun.
Jongin knew so he was glad to get such words from Baekhyun.
Following tasks were to test out some limits.
Baekhyun forced him in two extreme directions. Low notes and high notes to check how much Jongins voice was capeable of. He digged the soft vibrating sound Jongin did when he sang. And he wanted him to expand it.
Without telling him what it was that he liked, he made him exercise it.
At the end of the lesson, Baekhyun savored listening to Jongin.

This day, their way back was pretty chatty.
They talked about various things like animals and food.
On their way home, they walked past a fast food restaurant. And they both looked at each other in sync, grinning like idiots.

Of course they got in and ordered a ton of food which they were sure they could never ever finish.
But as they sat there, happily chewing the burgers and looking out of the window, Baekhyun had to think of him. They used to do this too once in a while. But now? They probably wouldn't do that anymore. They grew apart.
Baekhyun clenched his fist a little. He had to stop thinking. He had to stop feeling for him.

"Are you okay? Baekhyun finish your burger!"

Jongin chuckled, punching the olders arm softly. Baekhyun looked at him a little guilty.

"I think I ordered too much. I think you have to help me."

"Okay only this time. Oh god I hope I won't get fat because of that."

"As if Jongin, you can eat well and still look like a greek god. And even if you had a little tummy... So what? I have that too and I feel like I look okay anyways!"

"You look great, hyung. I think the way you look suits you a lot. Like your thighs for example. They look very soft."

Jongin complimented him and Baekhyun looked down. He disliked his thighs whenever he gained weight. A tummy alone wouldn't be that bad. But his thighs...
Jongin was still smiling at him as he lifted his head again. And Baekhyun smiled as well. He stayed suspicious with the thigh compliment but let it slip since it was Jongin.

They finished their food and walked home.
It was already morning as they arrived. 1 am or so but that didn't bother them much. They decided to fastly get some sleep before they had to get up again.