(Back to Jaeyoon's point of view)
As I got dressed feeling myself numb in every way. The pain would hit me but it didn't hurt as much as the pain coming from what I felt deep within my chest. I didn't know what to think, what to say, what to do, what to even comprehend.
I feel alone.
I get out from my room walking down the empty hall way. The creaks from the wooden floor following my every step. I stop in front of Tae's door placing my hand onto his door. My chest hollowed even more , heart taring apart. What am I doing? I don't know what I'm doing. But I ended up here. I place my hand onto his door knob opening his door and there he stood up from his bed using his hands to support himself up, rubbing his eyes from just waking up.
"Jaeyoon?" He called out.
I walk in without a word closing the door and locking it on my way in.
"Tae.."
I could see him through the darkness and make my way to his bed, Stopping at the edge of his bed.
"Are you okay?-"
Nothing mattered anymore, All the mistakes he had done all the mistakes I had done. I was through with them all. I just wanted Tae.
Just Tae.
Climbing over him where I sat perfectly onto his lap facing him.
He breathed heavily surprised from the sudden movement , "Jaeyoon.." He placed his hand on my waist where I had been hit from repeatedly.
Wincing in pain, I hold back tears gripping onto his shoulder.
"Jaeyoon what are you doing?-"
I cut off all his questions with a kiss , ignoring the pain. I wrap my arms around his neck pulling myself towards him as he gently wrapped his arms around me kissing me back. The kiss began to heat up as our tongues met, heavy breathing and hormones rising.
Maybe this was the worst way possible to get over what I had just gone through but maybe I also just needed something off my mind with the one person I want can take off what I'm feeling and going through from all this mess.
I lift his shirt taking it off and throwing it over to the side,
"Jae-"
I cut him off with a deep kiss.
"J-"
I cut him off again.
"Jaeyoon."
He gripped both sides of my shoulders pulling me away from him.
"This - , I love you." He looked deep into my eyes, "But you are not in the right state to be doing this."
He loves me..
Tears began to form , I could feel my whole body coming to a release of mixed emotions. Tae brings me to his chest laying me down gently next to him as I cry softly.
I bring myself to look up at him wiping my tears and gathering the courage to say what needed to be said for the past few years, "I love you too."
He caresses my face brushing my hair behind my ear and gently kisses my forehead.
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Suga looks up from the table seeing Jaeyoon walk to Tae's door, thinking she was not being seen. He didn't dare to make another move to let her know his presence was around. His heart shattered seeing her open the door and walking in with no hesitation. The second he heard the door lock his heart for Jaeyoon was then and there broken to pieces.
