It's July 12th 2019, you left me 5 month's ago. I hated those 5 month's. I still haven't convinced myself your gone forever. They tell me to forget about you, I don't wanna listen. I miss you, I still do. You're still mine, its not fair. I'm mad at them, they took you away. Why, why didn't they take me. I'm miserable, I'm more miserable writing this. I loved you, and I will always.
I can't move on, I just don't want to.
They, all of them, told me your not coming back. I dont want to believe them. I won't believe them, I hope, pray your out there somewhere. I know I'm crazy, but I'm crazy about you. Its just hard, too hard. I cried, I still do. You were my light, I want my light back. I still miss you, I miss your laugh and your smile. Its so hard to face reality. I remember when you were crying one morning because you were on your period, I whispered to you that I love you and you fell back asleep, you looked to peaceful. I wanna see your peaceful face again. I feel bad, I feel horrible. I had to sell our old apartment, I sold it 2 months ago. It reminded me too much of you. Everywhere I looked I saw you. I sleep with your favorite hoodie that you stole from me. I hold your clothes every night, they still smell like you. I don't wanna get rid of you, you were apart of me for 2 years. Im not gonna replace you. One day, one day I might find someone else's but I don't wanna leave you. You know, this is my first time writing a letter to you. I've tried before to write to you, but I had a panic attack. I still have panic attacks, nobody can help me like you did. They've gotten worse. We had to go to the hospital a couple times. So if your out there, somewhere, answer me. I love you, I'm not mad at you. I hope your not mad at me. - Zach herron
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"We're proud of you Zach"
"Thanks"
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shOOk I don't know if y'all want a pt 2 but I dont even know what I was doing sksk well I hoped you liked it bYeeee
