Abjection

Prologue

Abjection: a state of being at your lowest; showing hopelessness, or resignation. 

Life's not everything we hope for. We want happiness and the feeling of absolute exemptment. But instead we're filled with disappointment and constraint. 

It's so rare and valuable; the happy moments. You take them in and keep them confined until they burn out. You want to feel the joy as long as you can possibly muster before it goes away. Before it slips out of your hands; like it always does. 

That's how I felt around her. Captivated; Elated, even. But I knew she couldn't save me. Just as I couldn't save her. That's whats wrong with this world. Once your under, your gone. Nothing, and no one can retrieve the pieces that have fallen and rebuild what's already so broken down. Nothing, and no one could nor would want to fix what was abjection. And that my dear, was me.