Internet Friends // Matthew Espinosa

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Current mood: fucking useless

I've been getting hate. So much hate.

The words ring in my head.

'slut' 'bitch' 'kill yourself' 'die'

So, now, I'm done. I'm gonna jump. Its ny time. I sit on the ledge of the balcony, ready.

"I'm sorry!" i sob and slide off of the ledge. I fall 8 floors and I hit the ground. I feel the blackness taking over.

Matt's POV

I see her body and I call 911, sobbing.

"Hello what is your-"

"MY BEST FRIEND JUST ATTEMPTED SUICIDE I NEED AMBULANCE! PLEASE!"

"We will send one sir, thank you."

I kneel and hold her hand. "Please, Nic, hang in there." I hear the sirens and wave my hands. They pull her onto a gurney and I get into the ambulance , still clutching her hand.

Nicole's POV

I see a light and walk towards it. I see my mom.

"Nicole!" she hugs me.

"Mom."

"No, Nicole, you can't stay here. Go back to your friends your sister!" she points down. I look down. I'm in an ambulance, with Matt clutching my hand.

"Baby girl, this voy loves you." She says. "He needs you."

I stare at the sirens and feel a memory.

-flashback-

"Matt!" i laugh. "Stop!"

He gets on top of me. "I'm winning this wrestling match.'"

"No!" I flip it over so I'm on top of him.

He lies on the floor next to me. "Nicooooole?"

"Yeeeeees?"

"Do you think we'll make it till the end?"

I nod. "Forever and always?"

"Forever and always." He kisees me softly.

-end-

"Go back." my mom whispers.

"I will." I smile and walk through the light.

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Narrators POV

"She's awake!" Riley pushes ny hair out of my face.

"What happened?" Nicole replied, groggily.

"You tried, Nic."

"I-"

"Yes."

I see Cameron in the corner of the room. I sit up. Matt walks in.

"Nicole!" he hugs me tight. "You made it."

I cry into his shoulder.

I hug Cam and he cries.

"Cam, I need a sec with Matt, okay?"

He nods.

"Thank you." I say.

"Nicole?"

"Yes?"

"Forever and always?" he sticks out his pinki.

"Forever," i interlock my pink with hid. "and always."

He kisses my head. "I love you."

"I love you more." I smile and say, surely.

________

i'm released from the hostpital but, i have to break up with cam.

"Cam! Wait!" I run after him.

"Hey, Nic," he puts his hands in his pockets.

"I have something to say."

"Nicole, this isnt working."

"What?"

"I'm brewking up with you. I'm really busy and cant commit. I'm sorry." he walks off.

Ouch.

_________

"Hey, Nic, you wanna hang out?" Matt calls me.

"Yeah," I put my food down. "Now?"

"Please."

"I'll meet you in 5 minutes?"

"Yeah."

He hangs up and I get ready.

Loose top, black shorts, Converse.

I meet him in the lobby.

"hey." i sneak up behind him.

"we're going to the fair." he says, happily

"yes, sir." we walk a little bit and end up at a street fair.

"i love this place." matt says.

We get ice cream and sit on the pier.

"Matt?"

"What's up?"

"Do you think we'll make it to the end.?"

He nods. "Forever," we lock pinkis. "and always." He tilts my chin up. "I love you." He whispers.

I tilt my head up and kiss him. Soft, slow, passionate.