Thoughts

My World

I know I'm not alright

How can I be alright

Love has blended my heart

Time has widen my wounds

Space has darkened my mind

Tears have been my ocean of calming

Pain has been my bed of nails that I can't seem to get off of

These cuts that are carved into my arm

This blood painted onto my skin

They hold me together

Where my sanity runs wild

My insanity hold my broken pieces together

I can't explain to you how this pain that I have inhaled has made me better

I don't expect you to understand why these bright red colours are my favorite

I'm sorry that my pain hurts you

I tried to find better ways to make me happy

But now that you're gone

The old ways just seem so inviting

So I will sink into my ocean once again

I will smother my arms in the vibrant paint

I will rest my head on these nails as though they were to softest things in the world

I will let my pain overcome me because without you there is nothing holding me back

Nothing keeping me from my own little world