Well, I survived the date on my birthday! Nobody except Alïa seemed to remember it was even my birthday. I'm finally 17 years old!! YAY!! So close to being a legal adult.
Anyways, today is very special because... I don't really know why. I have school.... again. I want to die.
Alïa picks me up and gives me a ride, she's been ok recently. She doesn't have her eyes on anyone at the moment, I think she's giving the single life a try. I don't think I've ever seen her this happy.
"So, is Ethan transferring?"
"Umm, I don't know." I say, "I should probably ask him."
"Or you could ask Grayson."
"I'd rather not."
"Why not?"
"Because, yesterday was hella awkward." I say.
"You can't avoid Grayson forever, you know." Alïa gives me a reassuring look before parking the car and getting out, "Plus, it's not like anything serious is going on with you and Ethan, right?"
"I mean, I guess." I carefully get out of the car and almost trip.
Fortunately, someone caught me, UNfortunately, it was Grayson.
"Hey, you alright?" He asks me.
He's standing so close.. I can smell the cologne and weed, it makes my knees weak.
I clear my throat, "Yeah." I push him back and make my way to where Alïa is standing.
She looks at me with mischievous eyes, "No feelings?"
I shake my head in frustration, "NO."
"Hey... Ailani." I turn around ready to kick Grayson. It's a good thing I opened my eyes before doing so because I then found out that it was actually Ethan."
I smile and kiss his cheek, "Hey Ethan."
He wraps his hands around my waist and hugs me, "How'd you sleep?"
"Well, I dreamt about last night, I had fun."
"Hey, bro" Grayson puts his arm around Ethan's shoulders and winks at me, "Ailani."
"Dolan."
"Hey... what's up with you two? You were getting along so well yesterday."
"I didn't want to upset you." I say, sounding as innocent as ever.
"Don't be like that." Grayson says, "Trust me, I've known her longer and she is NOWHERE close to being that innocent."
"Oh shut up, Grayson." Alïa says, taking my side, "She's not the one who's too much of a pussy to tell her parents that--"
I put my hands over Alïa's mouth before she can say anything else, "I'll see you later." I tell Ethan, giving him a kiss before walking away.
"I was sooo gonna let him have it!" Alïa says, still jumping up and down slightly.
"Thanks, but don't do that again," I hug her, "See you at lunch?"
"Yeah."
"Alright then." we split up and walk to our separate classes.
"Rivers!" I feel a slap on my butt and my heat rushes to me face. I decide that it isn't worth my time to turn around so I keep walking. I hear the footsteps following me and grow more and more paranoid, "Mmm.... you liked that, huh?" I feel another hand grab at my butt and I bite back a scream.
"Bro, fuck off." I hear Ethans voice from besides me, "You're an asshole."
"Whatever dude, she's a slut."
I can't bear to look at Ethan at this moment so I race out of there and end up outside.
"Hey... hey are you ok?"
"No, and Im not in the mood to talk." I keep speed walking away from school.
Grayson grabs my arm and turns me around so I'm face to face with him. Our lips only inches apart.
"Tell me what's wrong." He insists.
"Nothing, Just not in the mood for school I guess."
"See, I would believe you if it weren't for your red, teary eyes." He moves closer to me and wraps his arms around me.
I feel safe when I'm with Grayson, but I also feel that way with Ethan.
Grayson ended up taking me home and I told him everything. I told him how I felt during and how I felt when the guy told Ethan i was a slut.
"Ethan would never think of you like that." He takes my hand in his and sighs, "As much as I hate to say it, Ethan is the better brother. He's less judgmental and... and obviously better at everything."
I frown and flick a hair out of Grayson's face, "I just... am so afraid of disappointing people sometimes."
"You're never going to disappoint either me or Ethan." Grayson says as he leans back to lay on my bed fully.
"Easy for you to say." I reply, "Can I tell you something?"
"Go ahead."
"You're wrong about Ethan being better at everything." I say, lying next to him, "I personally think you're a better kisser.
Grayson turns his head to look at me, "Is that so?" He sits up and pulls me up with him. He cups my face with his hands and pulls me in for a kiss.
Our second kiss was even better than the first.
After a while, Grayson says he has to go. I call my mom and tell her everything, she says I should've called her instead of just walking out. Pretty soon, Kendall comes home. I go downstairs to greet her and realize that she's with Alïa and Ethan.
"Thank god you're ok." Alïa runs straight for me and jump-hugs me.
"Yeah... sorry i didn't tell you." I say.
"No, no it's ok im just happy you're safe."
"Hey..." Ethan comes up to me and gives me a big bear hug.
"Hey"
"I was so worried." His eyes search mine for a minute before he speaks up again, "I don't believe them."
"About?"
"I don't believe what he said about you." Ethan says.
I smile and tear up a little, "Thanks.... I-I appreciate it."
He leans down for a kiss and I suddenly feel sick.
I literally kissed his brother a few hours ago... now he also wants to kiss me. I don't know what to do, if I kiss him I'll feel bad but if I reject his kiss then I'll feel even worse.
So, being the amazing decision maker I am, I kissed him.
Two kisses.
One for Grayson.
On for Ethan.
