PLAYGIRL'S KARMA

CHAPTER X

* JAENE'S POV *

i know its my fault why we broke up. pero alam nyo yung feeling na ikaw ang may sala pero ikaw ang nawalan?  masakit e. subrang sakit at mas nadagdagan pa nung si khris ang naging kasintahan nya. as in WTF!  kaibigan ko pa talaga ang ipinalit sakin? at sinagot naman ng gaga .. arghhh!!! 

andito pala ako sa bahay nagmumokmok, umiiyak sa isang tabi.

emo ang peg ko ngayon ehh .. pero ganun ata talaga ehhh ... kung sa anong paraan ko sya nakuha sa ganong paraan din sya mawawala. yes, you read it right.

im the bestfriend of his ex but then i become his girlfriend after they broke up.

i know this is my karma but shit!  im done taking pain. I've  suffered before and now this?  fuck this so called love.!

I grab my phone and write a text to gm.

To : all contacts

here in my room. crying again

when will this pain stop?  i really wish scientist would discover a medicine for heartaches for the people like me who suffer pain . but i know that's  impossible.

sent

i put my phone back to my study table and jump on my bed holding my notebook that contain vandalism and art writting.

i open my notebook and saw what i wrote last aug.05 it has a date on it.

im better than your ex,

and fresher than you next.

call me bitter coz that's  what i really feel. i flip the page and saw his bold name with designs. my tears fall when i read each sentence i wrote.

you broke me into pieces

they said I've  change a lot since i lost you

sHE'S brOKen

     because

sHE beLIEveD

pagkatapos kung basahin yun mas nag uunahang tumolu ang mga luha ko. arghhh!!  ang sakit lang pre!!!

i look again and i saw a poem that we're  written with black ink. mine was orange.

if you find yourself falling

                 dont fall too fast,

you migth end up with a love

                               that wont last,

so listen to my words and

                        take my advice,

if you find yourself falling

            YOU BETTER THINK TWICE :)

                                        —yatxdainne<3

i smile sadly and my tears fall down my cheecks again.

this is really what happen to me. i fall too fast and ended with a love that didnt last. i cant undo what happen but then i cant accept it that easily. it hurt a lot. and wanna know what hurt most?  is that he still give me hopes that there's  a chance to fix everything. he even give me a letter.  pinadala nya sa bestfriend nyang si mary ann. (sya yung girl na lumapit kay bryan nung naiyak sya sa shop. dunno what chapter)

"kilan kaya darating ulit yung araw na tayo'y magkasama muli, na tayo'y magiging masaya at mamahalin parin ang isat isa. maghihintay pa rin ako, pero kilan nga kaya. ahhh siguro pag nakalimutan mo na sya.

i love you dear

BRYAN

sinung di aasa sa ganyang sulat? bago pa naman sila ni khris kung gayon panakipbutas lang si khris?  aiii iwannn!!!!

———————