Empty Promises (Bloody Painter x Reader) [ORIGINAL]

Chapter 5- Guilt? What Does That Mean?

It was Helen all this time. How could I have been so stupid? Now I think about it, it was obvious that it was Helen, I mean, I knew him more than anybody else in this god forsaken world, surely I should have been the first to figure it out. I feel so stupid! All I felt was anger at this moment.

"WHY DID YOU KILL ALL OF THOSE INNOCENT PEOPLE?! I KNOW THEY BULLIED YOU A LOT, BUT I WAS HERE FOR YOU! I WOULD HAVE HELPED YOU THROUGH IT AND YOU KNOW IT, BUT STILL, YOU DECIDED TO GO BACK CRAP CRAZY AND KILL EVERYBODY AND LEAVING ME WITH NOBODY"

"(Y-Y/N)-"

"Just, save your breath Helen."

I started to storm off, I had no idea why I just said all that, but I meant it all, and he really should have considered it. I kept walking until I got to my house, then I just walked in, say on my couch, and started to cry into my hands. I know what I said was true, but I was way to harsh on him, but there was no going back now, I couldn't go back now.

I was there for a good half an hour or so, until I heard a knock at the door. I wiped my eyes and tided my hair a little, then got the door to see Helen standing there.

"What now Helen?"

"Look, I really can explain"

"Then do."

"Well, uuuh, I just couldn't hold it in anymore, after Tom's accident, I felt a rush, like, I was born to do that, and I know you don't really want to hear that because I know how much you loved Tom, but I just- I just couldn't help it, like something was taking over my body!"

"So, that explains the bullies, what about my parents?"

"Well uuuh, I didn't like how they home-schooled you, and that I never had the chance to see you, not without them seeing me, and I wanted to see you so desperately, I just, I didn't know what came over me."

"Why sneak into my room at night? Why not speak to me face to face like we are now?"

"Well, I was scared, that you would push me away and reject me, after I did all of that stuff."

"Why would you think that I would reject you? You were my best friend and only friend, and you were there for me."

"I meant reject me as a lover (y/n)"

"I know exactly what you meant Helen." I stared into his eyes, his bright blue eyes. I felt myself running my fingers through his scruffy black hair, then putting both of my arms around his neck, and I felt a pair of very cold hands on my waist. I kept staring, I didn't stop staring into his eyes for one second, until I saw him leaning in, and I felt myself doing the same. I closed my eyes as our lips softly collided with each other. He had a slight bloody taste on his lips, but I didn't care, I just kept kissing until we ran out of oxygen and had to breath. That's when I realised.

"Oh crap."

"What is it (y/n)?"

"I'm so sorry Helen... but, I can't love you, as much as I want to, I-I just cant."

"Wh-what-why?"

"Just, leave, come back later, like you always do, and you will see, I promise." I have him a quick kiss on the lips, then I closed the door and locked it.

I leaned against it, slid my back down the door, and sat on the ground, crying softly. I could hear Helen doing the same on the other side of the door, but a bit louder than me. I knew what I had to do, so I picked myself up slowly, walked over to my phone, and called somebody.

"Hey, Payton?"

(I wanted to keep it in only your view for all of this, but I thought this needed to be in Helen's POV)

~HELEN POV~

I started to cry, why was I so sad? I should be able to kill her! I told Judge Angle about her, she said that I should kill her, but every time I try to, I just- I couldn't do it. I wasn't sure if I loved her or not. I know she didn't love me surely? Why couldn't she love me? I mean, it has been almost a year since she has seen 'me', the not killer me. But, if I could everyone who cared about me, and I cared about, why not her? SHE IS JUST ANOTHER GIRL I hear screaming into my ears KILL HER

"No! I refuse to" I keep saying a loud.

COME ON! WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! KILL HER

"NO" I ran into the woods and started to hit everything that I could, breaking parts of tree off with rocks I had thrown at it, making my head bleed when I hit it against a tree, rocks, broken houses...

I was about to walk to the house, when I started to see black spots forming into my vision, and before I could call Angel, I collapsed, fainted.

<Time skip>

"Painter? Come on, wake up man!" I hear Angel calling me, as I slowly flicker open my eyes.

"Oh thank god, I thought you were a goner."

"Now why would you think that?"

She smiled at me, and I smiled back. She was my best friend, she has been for the last year.

(Can I just say, I have NEVER read the Bloody Painter comic, the only way I know about Judge angel is because of pictures of them together on google images) I can't shake the feeling of something bad gonna happen tonight, when I go see (y/n), like, something that's going to make me want to kill her, maybe that's a good thing?

"Yea it could be." said Angel, looking at me

"What are you talking about?"

"You kinda said that aloud." I felt my cheeks getting warmer. "but it could be a good thing that you might wanna kill her, I mean, it would get her out of your mind, and out of you way."

"But I won't be able to live with the guilt."

"Who said you will feel guilt?" A smirk came across her face, she had a point, I have never felt guilt before, why should I feel guilt now? I knew that I could kill her, she needs to die...