Caged by him

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I cried as my skin burned from the rubbing alcohol, I fisted the sheets below me trying to distract myself.

Roman comes around the bed kneeling down to eye level. I stared at him in agony, I had no fight in me.

I hated him so much for doing stuff like this to me.

I flinched when I see Romans hand reach out to gently caress my cheek wiping away the tears, but they just kept running down as if he never wiped them away.

Roman speaks in a calm manner, almost sympathetic.

Why do you make me do this stuff to you Love. Aren't you tired of hurting yourself?

If it wasn't for me, you would have no one to love you. Look at what has become of you, I see it in your eyes every day, you don't even love yourself enough to stop this.

Yes I kissed that girl tonight, but she meant nothing to me. You made me kiss her disgusting mouth, by making me angry earlier.

You keep pushing my buttons and instead of hurting you Physically I hurt you emotionally as punishment. You see I did that for you.

But instead of being grateful you chose to go wonder the club without me. I left you for just an hour and you couldn't keep your hands to yourself love.

You have angered me in the past but never did you actually cheat on me until now. You hurt me deeply, the cuts I just gave you were no where close to as deep as you cut through my heart.

I tried to be nice to you, I tried to shower you with gifts and kindness when you deserved it. But You just had to cross the line.

You thought I was a evil man before, but now you will see what kind of evil I can really be. I'm done protecting you from my demons.

Oh and one more thing,
I have decided to stop giving you any forms of contraceptives.

You will bear me a child, I have given you enough time.

I look at him with wide eyes, imagining having a child with this monster.
I could never escape if I am to be a mother, he will use our child against me. I can't let this happen I thought  to myself.

I spoke softly.

N-no I-I am N-not ready for a child. Please let's just talk about thi...

Their is nothing to discuss my love, I have decided already.

A few months ago back in Sweden, remember when you went to the emergency room?

I nodded yes to Romans question.

Well I wanted to keep this away from you because I thought it would hurt too much if you knew what we have lost because of you.

But I don't care to protect you anymore.
You had a miscarriage after you threw your little tantrums and made me beat you.

Tears swelled up her eyes once more, it hurt me seeing the pain in her eyes but it was the only way to hurt her for what she did to me.

No-no you-your lying to me R-Roman.

I am telling you the truth love, I have no reason to lie. We left Italy so sudden, I had no time to get you the pills for a couple weeks.