Falling For My Brother

Chapter 7 - Deja Vu

Emma POV

I layed in the grass next to my father's grave for what seemed like forever. It hadn't been cut for ages so I could barely be seen.

My grand father- my dad's dad- had been buried here as well.  When I was little, on my grandads birthday and on the anniversary of his death, we would come here. I used to lay in the grass next to his grave and hide away from the world. Whenever I cried, dad would tell me to celebrate his life, not to be upset about his death. He said that if he died, he wouldn't want me to always think of him as a corpse, but as a healthy person. So that's what I've done. Whenever i think of him I remember the trips and holidays we went on. How he always used to make me laugh, even when he was trying to be serious (like the 'talk' he gave me when I was 12).

It's not like I'm mourning over his death 24/7. It's just the little everyday things he would do for me when he was alive. I'm determined to get through this faze of shock that one day he just stopped breathing. I'm determined to be okay.

Jake appears looking down at me.

"Hey beautiful"

He stares at me for a second and then lays next to me in between the grave and me. Why does he have to say things like that to me? That is NOT a brotherly thing to say or do.

Ignoring the comment I grab the flowers from his hand, reach over him and lay them on the grave. Of course because I have the most clumsiness any human could ever have, I loose my balance and end up on top of him.

"This position is giving me deja vu. Do you feel it too? Actually now that I think about it I seem to remember me being on top of you..." Ugh. How many times is he going to through that night back in my face? We only had sex once in the whole time we were together.

"Of course you had to ruin the moment"

"Didn't realise we could have 'moments' anymore Emma."

"You know what I mean" I moved to get up but he grabbed my waist.

"Can't you just stay here for 5 minutes?"

I stared at him. And he stared at me. I hadn't seen him this close up in ages. I didnt know what to say. So we both just stayed silent. Then he leaned forward and brushed his lips on mine and the years just melted away. So much for not a brotherly thing to do. Once he realised I wasn't backing away anytime soon, he deepened the kiss. We stayed there kissing until it got dark which must of been at least an hour. He didn't even try anything.

Suddenly images came rushing into my mind. I remembered her. Her. She had kissed him as well. Been with him aswell.  So I backed away.

"I'm sorry Jake. I can't do this."

"We can figure something out with our parents-"

"It's not our parents that worry me. I just can't stop thinking of you with Zoe. You broke my heart Jake. It's going to take a long time before I trust you with it again."

With that, I got up and walked away.