Saving Felix (boyxboy)

Chapter Three

     After I got off the phone with my mom I slid my phone into my pocket, then sat down on the side walk. I hang my head and sigh. Nothing seems to be going well anymore. I feel my face get hot as I think about the last few days.

     I get up and adjust my shirt and pants, then pull my head phones out of my pocket and turn music on. I start to walk around, soon finding myself heading towards Greenstone Park.

     I walked up to a tree that had a perfect view of the river that runs along the tree line and sit down. I lay my head back against the tree and close my eyes. Eventually falling asleep after being sucked into my music.

     I wake up to Emily tapping my shoulder. -- Emily is a really close friend of mine. Her long red hair was pulled back into a ponytail, her bangs still hanging in her face, and she had her black and grey running gear on. -- I look up and pull out my head phones. "Hey sleepy head. Rough day at home?? I always see you here when you do." Emily says with a smile but with a look of concern.

"Yea, a pretty rough day. A week actually. I met a new kid with some issues. I wanna help him but he won't let me."

"Well.." Emily pauses while she sits down next to me, "I'm not completely sure what to say to that.."

"Yea, I don't even know what I think about this. I mean I just met him this morning on the bus. He had cuts on his wrist so I knew something was wrong. I mean I've been there too and I defiantly know what it's like when no one cares."

"Maybe that's why he got mad, he doesn't know how to react when someone cares. Just give him time??"

"Yea I guess so.." I sigh and look up at the tree then over at Emily. I look past her and see someone walking over to the swings. I look harder and realize it was Felix. "Hey that's him over there." I said gesturing in his direction with my head, "I'm gonna go apologies for what happened today."

"Alright, I'll be off to jogging again good luck." Emily says as she stands up. She gives me a hug after I stand up and stretch. "Bye bye. Text me later."

"Okay. She you later Em." With that she jogs off. I'm left standing in silence as I look at Felix. I head in his direction.

     He sways back and forth on the swing looking down at the ground. "Hey Felix." I call out as I get closer behind him.

     He looks up and looks around trying to find whoever called his name. I call his name again as I sit on the swing next to him. "Oh great.. it's you.." he spits out while wiping tears from his eyes. "What do you want? Money? Drugs? To bully me? Pick on me? Call me names? Or treat me like shit in other ways?"

"No. Actually, I saw you sitting here and decided to come say sorry. For today. For making you mad. For everything." I say as normal as I could. I feel anxious and completely unsure on what to say next.

"I thought I should be the one sorry.." he trails off and sobs a little, "I was being a prick today... I know you were trying to help… I'm just not use to help…" he wipes away more tears.

"Don't be sorry. I honestly don't know what came over me. Seeing your cuts made me remember my past, and how it felt when nobody cared.." I look at him straight in the eyes, "I've had an abusive father who is still around, but he is doing better... He doesn't hit my mum or me anymore... He's just really rude and cheats on my mother.. all the time.." I close my eyes as I remember today, "that's actually why I'm here now.." I fell silent not knowing what to say next.

     My face got hot and tears formed in my eyes, so I looked up and blinked the tears away. I'm normally not so sensitive but for some reason around Felix I feel… Open to emotion.

"My cuts are nothing compared to the rest of my story.. Abusive families? I'm the expert.. Why am I here? I don't like going home.. this is just a temporary stop.." Felix gets up and starts walking towards to the walking bridge over the river. I follow in silence.

     When we get to the middle of the bridge Felix walks over to the side and looks over. "Have you ever thought of just leaving? For good, never to return?"

     'I have and use to every day. Sometimes to this day I still do, sadly, more often then not..' my worries aren't important so I keep mine to myself. "I have a few times.." I swallow hard and walk up next to him and peer over the edge. I see the river reflecting the bridge and our figures and rigged rocks break the surface of the water. "Have you?"

"All the time.. sometimes my music, silent screams, and pleading for it all to end is all that saves me from the living hell I live with my so called parents.." He looks down and wraps his hands around the railing, squeezing hard as he thinks. More tears fall onto the water below.

     I was at a loss for words. I just place my hand on Felix's back and give him a sincere pat. "I'm baffled.. I'm completely and utterly sorry…" I pause to think, "Suicide isn't the answer to any situation, and I don't doubt that you have heard that before.."

"I have only read it.." Felix lets go of the railing and looks at me, "No one has cared enough to physically come talk to me when I'm down, which is all the fucking time.." as he talks I examine him; his eye is swollen and turning purple, more bruises cover his face and arms, and he was shaking from pain. 

     'How could I not see these before!' I shout to myself in anger, "Hey, I'll care no matter who you are." He looks at me and smiles, his lip is split open and starts to bleed as he frowns again while cringing with pain. "Man, what happened?!" Felixs faces turns red and anger floods his eyes.

"My father happened.. this happens when he.. is actually home.. and drinking.." he whispers through clenched teeth. His face turns into shock and he starts crying. "I.. I don't want.. to go home.. or even be here.. alive… breathing…" he chokes out between sobs.

     I softly wrap my arms around him and pat his hair. Felix hesitates but then brings his arms up and wraps them around my waist and places his head against my chest. -- I stand around about six foot two. Felix was about five foot seven. -- "Everything is gonna be alright.. I'm here.. Ending your life will only give your father satisfaction or a major guilt trip. None of which will help him better himself."

"Well... I have no where to go… I can't go home… My dad is furious that I left… He will kill me… and that's a promise…" Felix sobs harder into my chest as I hold him. I think on how I'm going to help him.

"My house isn't much better, but there you'll be safe." Felix agrees and insists on we going now before anyone recognises him and tells his father. We walk to my house in silence.

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     We finally reach home around eleven at night. I look in the driveway, and see no vehicles so I go inside. Everything was silent but the house was horribly trashed.

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《This chapter isn't the greatest. It's a bit brutal, but it will get better soon.

Sorry it's a little short. I'm still new to this, I have yet to improve. Hope you guys enjoyed it. Update soon.》