Love Is Underrated (TAEKOOK)

5

~Taehyung~

I had his hoodie on, It was the only bit of clothing i brought that i wasn't wearing, It makes me feel a little bit closer to him, It makes me think about him so i wear it when i'm in pain, because he always helped with that, fuck I'm useless without him.

I laugh bitterly to myself , as I brushed my teeth, before fixing my hair, and sighing to myself I went from a love hating 'bad boy' to someone who sells out his body for fucking money, to feed my child who's other father isn't even my soulmate, I was a virgin when I met jeon jungkook, now I'm worse than what he used to be. God what happened to that rebel wannabe in class Taehyung? I think we all miss that part of me, So easygoing, free spirited.

It's amazing how a knock of a door can change someone's life forever. Well, lack of knocking on the door.

I walked down the stairs, few notes of money in my pocket as I muster a smile at yoongi and jimin,

"You alright taetae?"

"Mhm...where's-"

"They went out, took sunmi, something about jin hyung being a better stylist than namjoon hyung? I don't know."

I laughed slightly at jimins carelessness before putting my shoes on, as he screeched.

"You cannot wear them! I'm gay for a reason Taehyung I have a sense of style," he took them off my feet lobbing them behind him, "what happened to you?! You used to be the most stylish person in the city!" He picked up white vans chucking them at me.

"Jimin I'm not wearing them! I've already took so much off you guys, I don't wanna ruin them."

"Kim Taehyung if you don't put them fucking shoes on your feet, I'm going to bite you."

I quickly put them on, now this may seem like an idle threat, but you don't know true horror until park jimin is chasing after you screaming he's going to chomp down on your skin as you run for your life down the street. I should know. It's happened to me...too many times.

He helped me up as yoongi had a grin stuck on his face. "Ok right I know I've been gone for a while, but that constant smile, it's new for you too right?"

Jimin nodded as yoongi just shrugs, grin still planted on his face. "I'm just living life guys."

"You haven't seen your best friend in like 3 and a half years, how are you just 'living life'?"

"Wow, Jesus, no holding back? I just have a good feeling alright? A lot of things have been shit our lives since he went, especially taes, and I know something goods about to happen I just do, you don't have to understand but please just, let me hope."

Jimin nodded before kissing him as I looked away, I couldn't watch it, viewing two people who love each other share that, I just can't, it hurts. Because I won't ever have that, 

To say regrets were made would be an understatement, I was rejected by myself and I never got over it, it's ironic really. I picked up my bag putting it on as I fixed jimins lent shoes and glanced back at the pair "I'm gonna head out, I'll see you guys later remember, I'll always love you jimin, even though you're a dwarf" Jimin grabbed my hand, "p-please dont leave again."

I mustered a smile, crossing my fingers behind my back "I won't, I promise."

He nodded before letting go as I walked out the door, moving my hand back to my side, I looked around as I walked, some people would say that's because I don't trust what's around me, and them people would be right, the worlds unforgiving. Everyone knows that I'm not gonna let someone jump at me because they have a chance.

I fixed my hair before running my hand through it, ruining the point of fixing it in the first place, i signed once again, before walking down the street, town was close, as was the shop I used to go to, shit had cheap stuff in.

Opening the door I smiled at a woman who looked at me, before grabbing a few things, I pondered around the clothes aisle, picking one shirt up before looking at the price tag and putting it back down god this place-

"Kim Taehyung?"

I turned around my eyes meeting a mans who I recognised. "Do I know you?"

"I was your supply teacher once? I had to go to the head about you, then you yelled something about a tenner."

"The tenner, I should've kept that tenner looks like I need it now."

"Money troubles?"

"Something like that."

"Here let me get it for you-"

"No no its fine, I was a dickhead to you back in the day, I can't just have you come back and help me" I smiled weakly at him, before he grabbed the shirt I looked at and put it in his own basket.

"Then perhaps after this you can come get lunch with my as an apology."

I laughed slightly before scratching the back of my head.

"Don't worry, it'll just be as friends, I know you had that soulmate then."

"Turns out, the test was wrong, he wasn't my soulmate, but fuck did I love him- I'm sorry,
I'm not supposed to speak about these things." I shook my head before counting the little money I had left, trying desperately to distract myself.

"Ah- on the run?"

anxiously looking up at him, I quickly reply. "No."

"Don't worry about it, my mum did too."

"Well tell her I'm impressed that she's still well and has you, because I feel like absolute shit and my daughters barely alive, and I love her more than I could ever love myself."

"You've changed a lot tae, and I only knew you for a short while, I heard you were actually really funny."

"Oh I was, but I suppose these things strip the life out of you."

I paid for my stuff before waiting for him, "I'm glad I saw you again Taehyung, I mean really glad."

"I'm glad I saw you, because I get to apologise for acting how I di-"

My eyes were drawn, drawn towards a mop of black hair, so messy yet so neat at the same time, he turned, his blonde eyes meeting my midnight black ones.

He seemed so familiar yet I just couldn't recognise him.

"Hello tae?"

"O-Oh Yeah? Sorry, I meant I'd like to apologise for how I acted, I am sorry."

"Don't worry about it, just, call me? Here's my number-"

"I um don't have a phone, sorry-"

"No! It's fine, where are you staying?"

"Kim seokjins house, just the big one down the street."

He nods before handing me my shirt, fuck I forgot about that.

"No I couldn't-"

He shook his head and raised his arms before walking out the shop, "You can't give it back now!"

I laughed slightly before putting it in my bag, looking for the mystery man, but seeing and hearing nothing but that black haired male leave and a grunt of annoyance leave his mouth.