Violets story

My life story.

Ok so If you hate depression, suicide or any shit like that. STOP READING BECAUSE MY LIFE IS SHIT, anyway, So we will start from when I remember, I was young having a pretty much normal childhood, HA not, when I was younger my mother and father got divorced, so every weekend I'd go with my dad who sold week. FOR ANYONE UNDER uh shit under 10 Don't do drugs, anyway my father sold weed and did human trafficking for a living so when I was literally 5 I knew everything about weed, so my father was a HOE and had like 8 other girlfriends so now I have hm at least 70 siblings? Anyway my life was pretty good for the most part, my dad let me get/do/go whatever I wanted so at least every Sunday my my dad would drop me off at home but I would throw fits and beg not to go to school and most times.. I won and got my way, couple years later I was now 7 and the police showed up at my house I was 7 so I was like "MOMMY BAD GUYS WITH GUNS ARE AT THE DOOR!" So my grandma dropped me and my 11 year old sister to school, at the end of school my grandma picked us up so I was like tf where mom? She said mom isn't coming home, as a 7 year old if the person who pushed you out of there YEA your like the fuck? So I later found out my mother and father went to jail for GOD only knows why, a couple months later my mom cakes home and I was like um where's dad? But he had to stay because they went for the same reason but one COUGH COUGH DAD did it worse, I went years without him, at first..I shut down.. my dad was my best friend and not even because he let me do whatever because he was the only person who I felt loved by.. I always switched schools because I got bullied and that gave me depression.. I've had depression..ptsd..ADD..ADHD..anxiety..and been bi polar almost my whole life.. so imagine this tall, skinny, ugly, socially awkward, mentally stupid kid, yea I got bullied for the littlest things, "Your two skinny," "your slow" "your chin is weird," "you have no friends" and..they were all true.. and too all theses perfect little girls.. BITCH COME AT ME. But I was different, the kind of different no one liked, this went on and on for years, I'm now 12, and btw I was the sassyest little girl you have ever met when I was younger but when he was token away from me I was..alone.. but I'm
Now 12, I go to a new school with new people, lance cruse. I made friends quick, and they are the best friends I've ever fucking ask for, I was.. popular, everyone knew who I was, I put on a face..a face I wanted to be the "Fun" "spunky" "badass" "funny" "trusting" girl, and that got me friends, everyone says be yourself but myself..if I Still was "myself" today..I would be eating alone.. but I put on a face I soon became, so one day In 6th grade, I met..her.. The best thing that's ever happened to me, snow . I went to her at lunch and asked, "Hey! Do you like Cory kenshin?" (Thanks Cory you got me a friend,) she was the cutest little shyest thing ever, so innocent, she said "y-yea.." and before you knew it she was my best friend, we spent the summer together but soon I feel in love with her.. I wanted her to be apart of my life, I kept my feelings for awhile, I thought.."you like a girl..?" "You can't do that.." and hell yea I couldn't.. I'd be back to being alone, so I hid my feelings, later I couldn't hid my feelings and I told her, "Snow ..I love you, more then a friend..more then a sister..(we called each other sis,) I love you like someone I want to marry..Yea I know..I'm 13..but you make me happy like no one else can.. you know things others don't.. I need you in my life.." and..I got rejected..now trust me..I've gotten rejected and dumped to many times before.. (yea I know I'm only 13 fuck you) but this time..it took me to a new level of pain.. I got depressed and..at this age my mom started hitting me.. so..I cut..I got suicidal..I felt hated..unwanted..unneeded..I cut and cut and cut.. because it made me happy.. it was my only way of feeling happy..don't get me wrong..we were still best friend but I couldn't help of wanting more (needy bitch) but I hid my sadness like I've Learned to do very easily, a few days later and she texted me.. "Violet..?" ""Yea..?"" ("" is me) "I-I love you..I kept thinking about what you said and you make life worth living.." I fucking felt like I was flying, I was so happy, I said ""I love you too! So we can be together?!"" "Yes," we grew to love each other more, one day we talked about kissing, so I did it she was so shy and nervous it was the cutest thing ever, but I kissed her and it was one of the best days of my life, we did everything together, I went to cedar point for the first time with her, that was fun btw, but one day we got into a fight because I wanted everyone to know I loved this girl but she was scared everyone would hate her and I knew where she was coming from
But I wanted everyone to know so we slowly started telling people, then..her mother.. her mother is the best woman I've ever met and she was so excepting, my mom always knew I was gay so but I at last everyone know my love for her..well except her 4 sisters.. they still don't know but it's fine, so now I'm seventh grade and everything's pretty good, but..then came 8th grade.. everything was amazing at first, I was on the football team..but one day..I brought a knife to school..I didn't know it was in my bag..that's a story for another time but.. this ruined my life.. I was..a criminal because this boy who doesn't like me lied to the police and said I tried to stab him.. I was suspended for 2 mouths..September..October..and the first week of November.. at the end of October my depression got the best of me.. I went to a mental hospital.. I only pretended to get better so I could come home..I came back to school. and got nothing but love from my friend..but..then some hate..people talked and joked and made the "Violet game.." where you pretend to put a knife to someone and say "don't test me." I went up to the boys who stared it and went off. Soon after I told the principal and things were fine.. until I tried to call cps on my mom because she somewhat physically.. and mentally abused me..things didn't work and I got grounded.. to this day I still feel as if she hates me.. but I have snow.. I have my friend and snow, back to my dad, he came home November 29th but..I'm not allowed to see him to that made all that progress and happiness go away.. so I cut again.. but snow tried to make things better, and snow is the only way I can escape my family but because of that little boy I'm
Not allowed to spend the night anywhere.. not allowed to be out past 6..I'm in probation..it's the worst but I'll be off February 27? I think, but.. I still get sad..i still hear voices.. I still want to die but.. I plan to marry this boy.. (she now is seen a boy, story for another time, I'll probably make a story about our love,) but I plan to have a good life and marry him, we have been together for 9 months so, thank you snow , and all my friends for making me not alone.. I love you all, and that's my story for now.