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The One Where She Runs Pt1

A/n: so I'm going to a back story and I would really recommend listen to '102 - The 1975' which I have linked above. I'm going to start putting songs that I think relate to the chapter if you want to listen then watch out :)

Ethan's p.o.v

Bursting out through the door onto the busy street, I feel the cold hit my face. Almost like it slaps me for being upset over Emma's happiness.
Quickly I start running to the parking lot to find my car, pushing and shoving past everyone in my way.
I reach my car and climb inside, slamming my door behind me.
"FUCK" I scream at the top of my lungs whilst I hit the steering wheel. The sound of my horn drowns out my swearing (cursing for you American folks). I plant my face into my hands, whipping away the tears that trickle down my cheeks.
Suddenly, my mind is full of memories of Emma, one in particular stands out to me - the day I told her I loved her.

*FLASHBACK*

I look in the mirror to check I am presentable one last time. I have chosen to wear a white shirt with black trousers, I need to look smart. This is important to me. What I'm about to do could change my life.

My shaking hands reach for the bouquet of red roses I got for Emma and I take one last deep breath before leaving the house.

*arrived at Emma's*

I just sit there in the car trying to pluck up the courage to go inside.
"Come on Ethan. You got this." And with that I get out and walk to the door. I press the buzzer and stand and wait. My heart felt so out of control that it felt like it was shaking my whole body.
Nervously, I check my watch as I feel like I have been stood here for an eternity but as I look up the door slowly opens and reveals the most beautiful girl I've ever seen smiles at me.
"Umm, hi Ethan. I wasn't expecting you?" Emma says to me confused.
"Oh... um yeah, surprise" I laugh awkwardly "can I come in?"
"Of course, come on in. Is everything alright?" Emma asks sounding concerned.
I start making my way into the house and head the living room. "I should be. Is Alex here?"
Emma follows behind me and we both sit on the sofa. "No he isn't" she replies.
"Good." There is a moment of silence and I look round the room trying to gather the right words say.
"E-" I cut here off before she say anything else and hand her the flowers.
"Here. I got them for you."
Emma looked puzzled but she smiled, "Oh, thank you Ethan" she walked over the kitchen and placed them on the counter, "I'll put them in a vase after."

I close my eyes and then just let the words come out. "I need to tell you something. You need to know the truth even if it might ruin our friendship. If I don't tell you now I might never get the chance and how am I supposed to live with myself if I can't express how I feel about you"
"Ethan" Emma touches my arm trying to stop me.
I look her in the eyes and hold her hands. Her eyes start tearing up. "No, not yet. I like you Emma, screw that, I love you Emma Chamberlain. I always have, ever since I first laid my eyes on you and I always will."
I stair at her waiting for some kind of response. I wipe away the tear that falls down her cheek.
"Fuck Ethan. Why couldn't you have told me this before now. Before I'm in a relationship."
"I-I tried on news eve. But when I found you, you were with Alex. Look I know you are in a relationship but it only just started and this is our last chance before you two get serious. I don't want you to end up with the wrong guy."
"Ethan. You know I've loved you. Loved. Past tense. Ethan maybe if you had been honest with me from the beginning it could be love."
"Emma please-" I try to speak but she cuts me off.
"No E, I need to say this. I've always loved you but I can't keep doing this. All this waiting and waiting for you. I need someone to love me who isn't afraid to show me how he feels so to say Alex is the wrong guy is crap. At least he has been man enough show me he wants me."

I don't really know what to say. She is right. Maybe if I had told her we could have been something.
"Your right about me. I should have told you and it will hurt me everytime I see or hear of you for the rest of my life. I don't think I can see you everyday and try to act normal. It's going to tear our friends apart." I start to cry too.
"So I guess this is goodbye then"
"I guess so" I struggle to cope with what was said.
Emma looks me in my eyes then cups my face. She leans in to kiss me and I kiss her back. I can't help but wish this kiss symbolises the start of us rather that the end. She rests her forehead on mine and whispers "Goodbye Ethan" which I simply respond with "Goodbye Emma"
Together we slowly walk out to the front of house. She stops at the doorway and I turn around to look at her. "We are meant to be Emma. I know it and I'll wait forever for you to change your mind." And with that I get into my car.

*FLASHBACK OVER*

~Skip to lunch~

I walk into Hannah and Ellie's apartment where I am greeted my James at the door. "Please say you brought the pizza?"
"Of course" I say walking over to the table, placing the boxes down.
"Good, I'm sister starving"
I sit down next to Hannah and reach out to give Grayson a fist bump. "Bro, you seen the Coachella line up?" He asks me.
"Its gonna be so dope! Especially with Tame Impala headlining." I respond while reaching over for a slice of pizza.
"3 whole days of good music, good vibes and the best people. I'm pizza cheering to that." Ellie says while lifting he pizza in the air.
We all do the same and cheer.
"Guys we need to be on our A-game with outfits this year. No slacking. We have to be that squad." Hannah says.
"Yes sis you already know I'm on outfits, I've got special plans." Just as James finishes speaking the door bell rings.
We all stop and look at each other.
"But we're all here?" Ellie says confused
"Are you expecting anyone?" Grayson asks.
"No" Hannah responds "I'll go see who it is." She gets up and walks over to the door.
"It's probably Dave from upstairs. Any excuse to see you girls and he is here" I joke but the voice doesn't sound like a man.
James, Ellie and Grayson all look in shock from who they see Hannah talking with at the door. I turn to look and as I see, I drop my pizza on the floor. It's Emma.

A/n: left on a clif hanger. Just wanna say this whole book isn't going to just be Ethma there will be lots of tea but I don't want to rush it and end up ruining it. Also one of the fisrt main storylines is Ethma but I do slowly hint bits so who knows, maybe you can see if you can guess what the next storyline is (hint: it is isn't coachella but it will be included)