It feels like dying

Chapter 4 "Dark"

It was difficult.More than difficult actually.It was painful,heartbreaking and most importantly,without end.

There was nothing that could possibly change.He was a traitor,the one that let the deatheaters into Hogwarts,the one that followed Voldemort,he was a Malfoy.

His name used to be one of the most well known names in the world of magic,but now,it was nothing.

He tried not to care,but he did,every time that the kids would avoid him and whisper while passing by him.Every time that he would enter the common room and all his "friends" would leave,without even glancing at him.Every time that he would wake up in the middle of the night from his own screams.

It was one of those nights.Around 1 o'clock,he jumped of his bed,he was really sweaty and he was breathing hard.He fell to the floor,his feet couldn't keep him still and he was too dizzy to help himself so he just let his body fall.

He put his palms on his face trying to relax himself.

He wouldn't go back to sleep,he couldn't actually.He got up and took a pair of black jeans and a white shirt.

Once he got dressed and put his shoes on he got out of the dormitory.

He headed to the library,hoping that a light reading would help him relax and maybe fall asleep again.

He silently opened the door of the library and got in.

Thinking of what he could read,he went to his favourite wing."Dark magic".

He heard something by the end of the wing and then a light was all over him making him unable to see.

"Oh my god Malfoy you scared me to death."

"Granger?"

"Yes?"

"For god sake take the light out of my face!"

"Oh I'm sorry."The witch apologized lowering her wand.

"What the hell are you doing here?You got the shit out of me."He fumed looking at her.

"I was about to ask you the same question."

"I couldn't sleep."

"Well,me neither."

"Good,I'll take a book and get out of here."

"If you want to stay here stay,I don't have a problem."

He looked at her.Did he wanted to stay?He didn't,especially with her around but he didn't want to go back to sleep either.

"Why you treat me like this?"

The words just flew out of his mouth wihout a second thought and it was too late to take them back.

She didn't expect to hear something like this either.

"Like what?"

He started it,so unfortunately he had to finished it.He looked away for a moment,and then back at her.

"I was a jerk to you for seven years and the last week you treat me like I am your friend."He paused."I'm not your friend."

"I don't want you to be my friend."

"So?"

"Everything has changed Draco and I-"

"Did you just call me Draco?"

He gazed at her,the way she looked at him gave you the feeling that she didn't know why she had called him by his first name either and it was truth,she didn't.