Happily Unhappy

How are you?

Have you ever felt deeply down? So deep that it pulls you towards the earth's core too hard? So deep that it feels like you don't have the ability to breathe and feel like you have no control of what you do?

Sometimes, you can't even admit to yourself that you're depressed or in deep sorrow? You can't tell anybody or you don't want to tell anybody because what they will only give you is sympathy? Comfort that will just bring you more sorrow until you suffocate in this ocean of emotions; until you feel like dying inside; until you feel rotten like an apple with worms inside; until you feel nothing. Your body becomes numb. You feel like your body's not yours to control. You feel like you're barely a human.

Not all wealthy and blessed people find such happiness from material things. Even those things with sentimental value only give you comfort not the happiness you seek. Sometimes, people are not even the answers to this feeling.

Some people, you maybe, have a complete family, good friends & all that you need and want, but you still feel what depressed people feel. You may be in seek of self love.

You might be going through serious problems like abuse, any form of bullying, financial problems, family problems, love problems and a lot more. Or you might be lonely, alone and have no one to help you in times of trouble. You might be in confusion, about religion, gender, about the choices or decisions you're about to make.