Cash(Discontinued)

The weekend

CAMERONS POV

Our lips are still moving in sync together. After 1 minute, yes I timed it we pull apart. Nash just sits there in shock and I just stare at him and his gorgeous eyes. "U-u-uh, cameron I" I cut nash off.

"Nash that was amazing." I say.

"No no sorry cameron I shouldn't have done that. Can you just leave." Nash says

"Why nash wasn't it enjoyable for you and plus we need to finish the project." I say to him

"I'll finish it myself. GET OUT CAMERON." He yells.

I run out the door crying. It feels like my heart just dropped to my stomach. Why didn't nash enjoy it to? I know why he's homophobic. Then why would he just sit there while we kissed. I hope I didn't loose my best friend. I couldn't stand not talking to nash he is my love and my best friend.

NASHS POV

"U-u-uh cameron I" I'm cut off bye cameron

"Nash that was amazing" cameron tells me.

"No no sorry cameron I shouldn't have done that can you just leave." I say.

"Why nash wasn't it enjoyable for you and plus we need to finish the project." He says.

"I'll finish it myself. GET OUT CAMERON. I yell.

My heart drops as soon as I see him start to cry. It was a good idea tho I'm not gay I say to myself. I start thinking maybe I'm bi. I really liked the kiss, but I couldn't date cameron anyway my dad tought me to be homophobic like him. If he saw I was dating cameron he would hurt cameron, and me.

I start to cry. I run upstairs to my room. I run to my closet and grab the old shoe box from my vans. I reach inside and grab the blade. I Pull my pants past my thighs and start cutting my thighs one cut, two, three , four cut. My leg is dripping blood by this time. I see my phone beside me light up its a text from cameron.

Cameron:

Nash I'm so sorry I don't want to loose you

And I ignore it and then another one pops up.

Cameron:

Nash please I love you I can't hide my feeling anymore. Please please please don't ignore me I need you in my life.

I ignore that one and start to drift off to sleep.