Cash(Discontinued)

Sunday

I wake up in my bathroom. I look down at my wrist and know why. I remember what happened last night with me and cam. I'll probably have to stay away from him for awhile. I can't be gay my dad would hurt us both. I pick up my phone and see those two messages I got last night that I didn't answer. Then one more that says

FROM CAMERON: I'll be over at 11 am wether u like it or not. We need to talk.

Ugh no. He can't come to my house I don't want to be around him.i quickly text back.

NASH: Cam dont you fucking dare come to my house.

I text that and realize that saying that would hurt him and I feel bad. Before I can text back I get a long message from cameron.

CAMERON: nash what did I do? I can't help that I love you. If I could be straight it would be better wouldn't it. I'm sorry I can't take my feelings away. Nash you are the only guy that is nice to me. Plus your kinda cute. Sorry for that but Hamilton Nash Grier just because your mad is not gonna ruin our friendship. I LOVE YOU AND I NEED YOU. NASH GRIER I LOVE YOU WITH ALL I HAVE.

I read it and begin crying. Cameron loves me and I'm such a dick. I look down at my wrist and wonder why I didn't go deeper. I could have ended all this trouble. I'm not gay I can't date cam. I did enjoy are kiss but I still can't even if I am or think I'm bi. What if we broke up and he wouldn't be my friend again. Plus my dad wouldn't allow it. I text him back.

NASH: cameron just please don't do this. I love you as a friend and that's all. Sorry.

CAMERONS POV

I sit in my room pouring my eyes out. Nash doesn't love me. Didn't that kiss mean anything to him. All of a sudden my phone lights up its a text from Nash.

NASH; cameron just please don't do this. I love you as a friend and that's all.

I read it and I cry harder. I run to my closet and get the box out of my closet. I pull the blade out and move it across my thigh. Four times till my leg is full of blood. Then I realize I didn't just do it four times. I spelt nash into my leg.