Anticlimactic

little star

you are a star

in my slow and startled morning

with my sallow darkness hanging overhead

and the sound of the wind quaking through the windows

you are a dot of light in the endless sky

but still i see you

i see you and wonder and love

and i am just a speck on the ground

you are a star

starshine light and the collision of millions, billions of particles

you are cosmic

life changing

i am sat in inky black darkness

cold and empty and with the shadows hanging just low enough to tempt the wanderer in me

while my heart walks the line between trepidation and impatience

i never know when to tell it to stop

and there is one bit of light in the sky

so far away i could never touch it

but a comfort all the same

in my moonless, sunless, midnight sky in the early morning hours

you are dreams and hope and the slightest taste of something more

and i do not know how to express gratitude when it tastes like grief

but i have never loved like you

and i don't know how to learn how

the emptiness is so much easier

and i am so sorry

i have never been so glad that you are so far away

it will be so much easier to forget me

little star