Clear Mind

Chapter Two: More?

I woke up and around my arm a monitor to measur my bloodpressure. It was probably Harry, he always looks after me. After a while, Harry came back in with a glass of water and my medicins
'Are you okay?' He asked worried.
I nodded,'Yes, fine. And, erm... thanks.' I took the glass of water and took my pills.
Harry helped me on my bed and I layed down. Harry looked at a my book that I'm writing, Clear Mind, and asked me what it was about.
'It, it's nothing, just some book I'm writing, it's not that good.'
'Can I read it?' He looked at me.
'Yeah, sure. I based it upon our life and gave me superpowers. It's not reality, you know I have a big imagination.'
He laughed and I smiled. Harry is an amazing brother to me.
'I, erm, I... I don't think I can make it to the Field.'
The Field is a party I organise every year. I invite the whole neigbourhood and there's a lot of work to it.
'But, but, Harry... Why not?'
'There's a lacrosse game and... the coach said there will be consequenses if you don't play.'
'Benched?'
Harry shaked his head. 'Laid off.'
After a time of silence he left the room and so did I, I went to the bathroom and sat down to the floor. I kept thinking I just told Harry. It's not reality. What if it what I said was true. What if all that I heard is just my mind telling me that, not the people I think I hear? I was glad but at the same time I was still scared. Am I crazy? Because I believed it the whole time! I'm such an idiot. I started to cry. After a while Nina came wagging to me but when she saw me cry, she jumped on my bed and started to sing, she always sings the same song.

Oh my darling, oh my darling.
Oh my darling, Clementine,
Thou were lost and gone forever, dreadful sorry, Clementine.

In a cavern, in a canyon, excavating for a mine.
Lived a miner forty-niner, and his daughter Clementine.

Yes i love her, how i love her, thought her shoes were number nine.
Herring boxes without topses, sandals were for Clementine.

Oh my darling, oh my darling.
Oh my darling, Clementine,
Thou were lost and gone forever, dreadful sorry, Clementine.

Drove the horses to the water, every morning just at nine.
Hit her foot against a splinter, fell into the foaming brine.

Ruby lips above the water, blowing bubbles soft and fine.
But at last, I was no swimmer, so I lost my Clementine.

Oh my darling, oh my darling.
Oh my darling, Clementine,
Thou were lost and gone forever, dreadful sorry, Clementine.

Thou were lost and gone forever, dreadful sorry, Clementine.

I listened to her sing with a golden voice. I started to believe again.
NO, don't!! You'll only get crazier. I ran to the cellar of the garden shed. No one can hear you in there.
'No, no, no, no, no... NO!
I CAN'T JUST STAY LIKE THIS!!! WHY ME? WHY ME?'
I screamed so loud but luckly no one could hear me.

My head started tolling again and I went back inside to my bed, I shouldn't have stand up yet.
I fell on my bed and closed my eyes.