The UNexpecting

The Secret

" Ummmm hellooooo ! " Syncere waved his hand in my face because I guess I was starring 👀 . His body just looks soooo 👀🙈 .

" Oh my gosh , my fault . Just trynna get to the track ..... See ya ! " Now even though I tried dismissing myself my feet wouldn't move because my eyes was just on that body !

He began chuckling and then patted my head as if I was a dog -.-

" Since you seem so hypnotized by whatever your staring at ... I'll see you later baby girl " He then winked and with that he walked off with a smirk

UGHH !! He did that on purpose 😒 ...

After about 6 minutes I was done running my two laps . It usually takes me about 4 minutes to run half a mile which is 2 laps BUT .... Syncere was on the field .... At football practice .... pigwiobfoajbsksohbsjaoshsoj 😱 ... I couldn't help but stare at the boy ! Ugh , anyway I put my headphones and my phone back in my gym bag after I was done because I was listening to music while running . I entered the gym and the first thing we had to start on was serving . We had a partner and served the ball back and forth to each other . A girl I met earlier today by the name of Zandría but I call her Zanny , she is also here to tryout with me .

Zanny is Trinidadian . She nor her mom doesn't have the accent but her grandparents do . She is 5'5 , brownish honey blonde hair , green eyes 😍 , she has a big nose but it is gorgeous on her . Like it fits her face so well . Caramel skin . And a perfect body . Our bodies are the same but she just has long legs like a model . She really looks flawless but everyone has their flaws . Just hers are on the inside .

" So do you go to the gym and workout ? " she asked while serving the ball to me .

" Yea , Planet Fitness every other day . " I served it back to her

" You run on the treadmills ? " She served it back to me . Why are we having this weird conversation ?

" Yess , Zanny why ? Wanna come with me sometime ? " I served the ball back to her

" No I'm fine , but I was asking because what took you forever and a day to run those two laps ? Your use to running it's not like your out of shape or anything . So what's up ? What was on your mind ? " She served it back to me only this time when I served , I didn't reply .

" Is it a boy ? " She sound so excited then served it back . Then my arms started getting shaky . But I served it back

" Is it ..... Syncere ?! " I then let the ball slip right through my fingers . She knew what she was doing -.-

" Awwwww Kenzie has cwushy wushy on hewr fiwst day ? " She said in a baby voice . Then she started cheesing and walking towards me

Keep in mind my face was still looking shocked from when she said his name 😳 . Then the coach had blew her whistle notifying us to stop what we were doing . Yesssss saved by the bell . Because in reality nope I don't have a crush on him at all I was just sexually and physically attracted to him . I'll admit he had my ovaries doing cartwheels but it isn't my fault ! It's normal and it's human . That doesn't mean I automatically have feelings for him . Gosh any female should know this !

Now no I am not a virgin , but I also don't have sex often . So my body is feeling a bit sexually frustrated you can say and I was just looking at him with lust not love 😏 . I lost my virginity when I was 12 . Only because I was tricked into it . I was having trouble at home and decided to runaway . Maybe later on I will explain why I ran away but not right now .

But anyway there was a guy by the name of X'avier . At the time he was 17 and I had no place to go so he took me in for bout 2 months . He lived alone but I never knew why . And basically later down the line he seduced me , told me he was starting to love me and if I loved him back then this would be the best way to show him . And at first I said no but then he was mad at me and said I was being selfish and gave me the cold shoulder and silent treatment . He even brought in some hoe one night and had sex with her while I was in the house ! I heard her moans and everything and it hurt my feelings really bad .

So the next day I decided I was going to do it so he wouldn't have to hurt my feelings anymore . I lit candles and had rose petals and all that . He never told me it was going to hurt though ! I just thought it was going to feel good and I can be satisfied like the other girl was because by the sound of her moans and screams , it sounded like a fun thing to do . But there was blood in the sheets and everything . Well at first of course it was excruciating pain but turned into the best pleasure you can possibly imagine . And as weeks went by we would have sex constantly .

Sometimes more than twice in one day ! It was never love making though . It was always rough and he wouldn't even care if I was pleasured well enough . As long as he got his nut he was all good . Well eventually he invited some of his friends over so they can have sex with me too ! And I wasn't trynna have that so I ran away from there again . I couldn't tell the police because they would of brought me back home and plus it isn't rape if you consented it . I wanted to have sex with him so really he wouldn't of been in as much trouble as I thought . And yet there I was again lost and nowhere to go . And that's when Rico took me in .

But enough of my sob story . Anyway , so tryouts were over after an hour and I was in the locker room with Zanny .

" Don't think you got out of that conversation either Kenzie " She said to me with a stern look and pointed a finger at me .

" Ugh , well to clarify your question .... NO I do not have a 'cwushy wushy ' " I copied her voice from earlier .

" You probably think you don't but trust me eventually you will , but be careful is all I'm telling you because Syncere Alvarez can and will break your heart . " And with that she zipped up her gym bag and stood up

" Thanks for the advice but I won't need it " we started walking out of the door then someone said my name .

"3 o' clock " Zanny whispered to me .

"Oh ummm hey Syncere what's up ? " He then looked at Zanny with a stare as if he was saying ' Can't you see I wanna talk to her alone '

" So Kenzie I'll call you later ? " She said while walking away

" Yea for sure " I said to her with a death stare . She left me alone with him on purpose -.-

" What do you want ? " I said it a bit harshly but on accident . I was tired my feet hurt and I had to eat because I felt my sugar getting low .

" Well you dropped this when you were walking to the locker room earlier . And I know you need it , I didn't wanna just give to you in front of everyone because it's really nobody else's business " It was my insulin . But that was nice of him to do .

I have diabetes 😒 , and I don't tell anyone that . Mostly because I would probably get made fun of for it . It's not because I eat too much sweets or anything . Anybody can get it . You can be healthy as an Ox and still get it . I didn't know how to respond to it . I can't say it's not mine and not take it because I need it .

" Ummm t-thanks , I'll see you l-later " I said with my head down . I felt tears swelling in my eyes but I couldn't let that show . I grabbed it and turned around .

" Hey , Ma'Kenzie . " He said which made me turn back around towards him .

" Yea ? " I didn't look him in the eyes .

" Your secret is safe with me . I promise , and I always keep my promises baby girl " he tapped my nose with his finger which made me smile and look at him .

" Thanks " we bumped fist and I turned around and headed to my car .

Hmm he might not be that bad of a person . But I know some day either it's gonna be soon or not , he will ask me questions about it . I never told anyone about it before though . Well I mean Melody , the other two girls Caitlyn and Hope . And also Rico knows about it but that's because we live together . A part of me doesn't even plan on telling Zanny ..... 😔😒😞😕