FIGHT LIKE A GIRL

CHAPTER 4 - The Start Of Beginning

FIGHT LIKE A GIRL
By: aba_stella 💕

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"Success is not final; failure is not fatal: It is the courage to continue that counts."

- Unknown

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FIGHT LIKE A GIRL
Chapter Four
*The Start of Beginning

(Luxury's POV)

I am sitting in front of our dining table while waiting for my mom to finish whatever she's cooking. And yeah, we're still NOT talking about it. And I don't know if when I will be ready, so I'll just wait for her to speak up.

Alright folks, she's now in front of me. She's preparing dishes so we can start to eat.

Ano ba! Sa sobrang kaba english na ko ng english dito! Huhu. 😭

"So?" Nagulat ako ng nagsalita si mommy. Nakataas yung kilay nya na parang nagtatanong or nagtataka.

Hala! Ano? Anong sasabihin ko? Ano naaaa?

"Lux, ang sabi ko mag pray na tayo."

"U-um, yeah. L-let's pray po." Natetense pa rin ako while praying.

We're in halfway of eating my mom's specialty adobo when I realized that she's staring at me.

And then... poof!

I really wanted to lie and pretend that it's nothing. That she got the wrong news, and I'm still the best in our class. I want to lie and tell her that she don't need to worry since everything is good.

Pero ibubuka ko pa lang yung labi ko, no words actually came out. Nalasahan ko lang na may maalat na tubig sa labi ko. And yeah, I'm crying. I'm bursting in tears and I'm crying like a baby.

I really don't care if my mom is in front of me and witnessing how much a failure I am. Like, I don't care anymore! I just want this pain to leave me alone! I want to cry and scream at the same time.

I'm just sitting here in front of my delicious food, na hindi ko naman nalalasahan sa sobrang tense ko kanina. I'm just sitting here, in front of my mom, and just like what I said, di ko sya tinitignan. Ayokong dumagdag sa sakit ng puso ko, pag nakita ko yung dissapointment sa mata nya.

I am planning to stand up and continue my crying in my room, when I felt my mom's hand in my wrist, as if she's stopping me from walking away.

I'm shocked when she hugged me. She's patting me like I'm a toddler that cried because I lost my balance and get hurt. And that's where I lost it. Di ko na kinayang pigilin pa lahat ng iyak ko.

"M-mom. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry." Umiiyak na ko na parang bata while hugging her back.

"Sshhh. I know, baby. I know." Those words are the most comforting words I ever heard in my whole life.

"Mom, I really don't want to dissapoint you. Please give me another chance. I can prove you that I'm not a failure anymore. Please, mom." Kulang na lang lumuhod ako sa harap nya while pleading for her to give me another chance.

Marahan akong hinila ni mommy sa couch para umupo. Hinawakan nya yung dalawang kamay ko habang tinignan ako sa mata.

"Lux, I know that you're giving your best shot everyday. Not only in academics, extra curriculars, but also here, as my daughter. I am not dissapointed just because you ranked down a bit. I am disappointed because you're looking down to yourself." I really cried when I heard that from my mom. I felt my mom running her fingers to my hair and gently caressing my wet cheeks because of my tears.