Warmth

Warmth [3]

"Mmm." I sighed, opening my eyes. I yawned, scanning the room. Jacob wasn't there, he must've left last night. I glanced at the clock next to my bed, I had to get to school.

I pushed the blankets off and looked out the window, to my dismay it was gloomy an drizzling. That meant Edward would be in today, I groaned. I saw Charlie's car exiting the driveway. I walked into the bathroom and started the shower.

I stepped into the warm, inviting water. closing my eyes. I let the water relax my muscles as I lathered myself in my rich strawberry body-wash, followed my shampooing and conditions my hair with the same brand.

As much as I wanted to stay in the pleasantly warm shower, being the high light of my mornings,I had no more time. Reluctantly, I shut the water off and stepped out of the shower, wrapping myself in a pale blue towel. I dried myself, then slipped into my robe. I dried my hair, leaving it just a bit damp. I dressed in a dark grey V- neck with a white cami underneath, blue jeans and black rainboots. I contained my unruly hair in a slim black headband.

I threw on my raincoat before slinging on my messenger bag and exiting through the door. I half expected to see Edwards shiny Volvo parked in my driveway but sighed when I remembered that wouldn't happen anymore. A tear slid down my cheek as I glanced at the empty driveway but a wave of warmth entered me as I thought about Jacob.

It was a shame we didn't go to the same school, surviving the day without him was going to be hard. But I couldn't skip school again, for the past several weeks, I'd been pretending to go to school so Charlie wouldn't worry while I was really just hanging with Jacob, but I felt bad making Jacob ditch his friends and his whole social like just for me.

In the process of spending that time with him I realized two things.

- I loved him way more than I realized, it was scary

- I still couldn't let go of Edward

His name lingered in my head for a while, things had changed. They had really changed, for a second I freaked out. What was I doing? What was I doing with Jacob? Was I making the right decision ? I couldn't even think straight, all the memories of me and Edward flooded my mind and I couldn't breath, I was made painfully aware of the hole in my chest, the one that had been temporarily healed by Jacob. It was slowly being ripped back open every time I thought of him.

I clutched my chest and fell to the floor right outside my house, tears blurred my vision and my lungs felt like they were about to pop. I was getting dizzy as I struggled to breath, I felt like I was dying.

Oh god

Why is this happening to me?

Those were my last thoughts before it all went black.

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(A/N: I sooo wanted to end there haha ! But I'm not that evil)

"Bella," I heard someone say. I strained to make the voice out but my head was whirling and everything was so loud.

It took all my strength to pry my eyes open, everything was blurry and my body felt heavy. It felt like a hang over on steroids. Breathing was hard to do, I felt light headed and faint like I could pass out any second.

When my eye sight cleared up a bit, I saw Jacobs face leaning closely into mine, he looked worried. I realized that he was holding me in his arms and clutching me tightly.

"Where am I?" I asked in a raspy voice, finally regaining awareness of my surroundings. Red and blue lights were flashing all around me and I could hear the police sirens.

"Your in front of your house Bella, I found you lying on the ground, unconscious." He said in a pained voice. I looked at him and gulped. Then it all came back, the memories.

"What happened Bella?" He asked, his brown, almost black eyes boring into mine. I couldn't let him know that I had a panic attack. "I - I don't know."

He looked at me, I knew he could tell I was lying just from the expression on his face. Then I looked around, remembering the parked cop cars around the house. "You called Charlie?" I hissed. He gulped looking guilty, then his eyes turned stone hard. "What was I supposed to do!? You were out cold, if I'd come any later you would have died." He snapped, his eyes were no longer warm and brown, they were cold and black. I knew he was angry and it scared me. It was worse because me being scared just pisses him off more.

Suddenly, Jacob put me down, he wouldn't look at me. My stomach dropped, he was angry with me.

Bella, you okay?" Charlie asked me, his eyes were filled with concern. "Yes." I said, trying to sound sure. "You didn't call mom, did you?"

He looked at me, guilty as ever. Damn. I was screwed, my mom was going to flip out, she worries for the smallest of things, I smacked my forehead with my hand pacing around. I knew I had to call her, she was probably assuming the worst.

Suddenly I didn't feel so good, everything was stressing me out, I needed a warm bath and music. Then, sleep. I glanced at my watch, it was still morning.

So much for going to school today, I hadn't even made it past the steps.

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A/N: I FINALLY updated ! I know it's short but I didn't want to keep you guys waiting. It's been soooooo long, almost a year huh? I'm fan girling like crazy over 1k reads ! It may not be a lot to some but it is to me! Im so freakin happy, and I keep getting notifications that people are adding this to their reading list! I knew I just had to keep writing, honestly I wasn't going to continue ... But you guys motivated me :') thankyou so much and I hope your happy I actually updated !