Warmth

Warmth [4]

"Bella open the door! Are you okay!? What's going on?!"

"Bella what the f*ck!? We're going to bust the door down!"

Those were the voices of Charlie and Jacob, that's what I had woken up to. I opened my tear stained eyes and snapped out of my thoughts, I had fallen asleep in the tub, drowning in the bubbles of the warm bath.

"Wait!" I croaked, realizing I was completely naked. "Bella! Why didn't you answer us? Are you okay!? We were worried!" Charlie begged, I could sense Jacob's anger on the other side.

"I'm sorry, I fell asleep. I was tired, I'll be out soon." I said softly, I knew they heard me as the sound footsteps fading invaded my ears. Yeah, I'd fallen asleep in the tub, well it was more like completely zoning out. Add that to the list of stupid things i'd done today.

I was so, so tired. I didn't want to get out, but I knew that I had already been in here for a long time, and Charlie and Jacob were waiting for me.

I lifted myself up out of the bathtub, my body felt heavy. I wrapped myself in a towel and stared at my reflection. I looked like death, my pasty skin was even more pale, if that was even possible. My eyes were drooping and had dark circles underneath. I almost looked like a vampire, something I had once longed to be. I could've laughed if I wasn't in such a sour mood.

My hair was knotted and wet, my hands felt like raisins, they were so pruny and wrinkled, like I was and old lady. I shuddered at the thought, then reminded myself that I didn't have to worry about that anymore... I was with Jacob now. Someone who .. aged.

I was about to change when I realized that my cloths were in my room, I hoped Jacob wasn't waiting in there.

To my dismay, he was. "Jacob, I need to get dressed." I told him, blushing.

He smirked a bit, "I don't mind."

I playfully smacked his arm and shooed him out. After I was body sprayed, lotioned up and dressed in long band tee and shorts, I attempted to comb the knots out of my hair. When I had managed to make it look presentable enough, I realized that I had taken 2 showers all in one morning. I rolled my eyes at myself and let Jacob in again.

He pulled me into a hug immediately, then he lifted my chin up and looked into my eyes deeply, I could see the hurt, the affection and the anger bubbling within them. The look he was giving me was so intense that I had to look away.

"Bella." He mumbled, pulling my face back to look at him again. "Don't make me angrier than I already am. Tell me why you don't care about yourself."

My eyes widened and my breath hitched in my throat. "Wh - what ?" I stuttered. His eyes were blazing. "You're not treating yourself right. You're not eating enough, or getting much sunlight, that could have been the reason you passed out." He told me.

I shook my head, then I stopped. I didn't want to tell him that I had a panic attack and that it had nothing to do with my health, it was fear. It was the fear that I would never be the same again... without Edward, that no matter how much I tried to ignore and forget, time would not heal me. Time didn't even exist for Edward, I just hoped he could move on.

I mentally scolded myself for thinking about him and his well being. I met Jacob's eyes again to see him still staring at me with the same questioning look, waiting for me to answer.

"I'm fine." I responded weakly. His eyebrows twitched ever so slightly and I could see his anger beginning, then his face fell void of emotion and he covered it up.

"You are not fine. You don't even value your own life, but you know what? I do. And I'm going to make sure that it's safe, weather you like it or not .. you're going to learn to love yourself. I'm going to show you how, I promise." He said, looking at me with a look of pure determination on his face.

And within that gaze of motive, I saw something else .. something so deep and strong that it almost scared me ..

Love

And I felt it back, rushing through my body like the shock of death.

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A/N: finally updated ♡ after .. another year .. lol it seems my updates come once a year smh. . Sorry guys I promise I'll try to update this story more.

It's just that I have writers block with this one because I have no Idea where its going. Yeah, I had a plan for it like 4 years ago .. But idont really remember that anymore haha.

BUT since you guys seem to like it so much, I'm going to try my best ! ♡

Once again sorry for the wait and thank you all for 4k reads!

~Kyara ♡