Open Wounds

Chapter 11

**Omfg, okay, please listen to The Harold Song by Kesha when reading this chapter, it works sooo much okay??**

Derek~

*2 months later*

"Allison hasn't talked to you lately then?" I asked Scott as I walked over to the living room and sat beside him.

"Not since I told her what happened with I- Isaac.. " He answered quietly, I just nodded. "Stiles... hasn't-- He... uh, he hasn't..."

"No" I replied in a whispered as I looked at the ground. "But, I- I'm gonna... I'm gonna find him"

"It's been two months, Derek" Scott said sounding a bit annoyed as he stood up. "I'm pretty sure he's g--"

"Don't say that" I screamed as I stood up quickly, looking him in the eyes. "Don't you dare say that..." I said more quietly this time.

Scott sighed as he put his hand on my shoulder. "Look, Derek--" I pushed his hand off my shoulder roughly and he sighed again as he pulled it away. "Look, I- I know... it's hard to believe but... he's gone and... I don't think he wants to be found--"

"No." I said cutting him off, "If I knew anything about Stiles, and what he was, what he is to me it's that, even if he wanted to leave, he couldn't, he wouldn't. Because there is this- this uncontrolable bond between us, and I- I know what I felt with him, I know he felt it too and you- you can't fake that..." I said the last part in a whisper as I looked back at the floor. "He's in trouble... he could be slowly dying for all I know!" I looked back up at Scott, my eyes began to illuminate a bright blue as the word left my mouth. "I'm going to find him"

I seen him open his mouth to say something but before he could I was gone. I couldn't stay and here what he had to say, it hurt too much to even say what I'd said.... let's face it, I'm in denial. He is gone, and probably not coming back... And what if I'm the one who drove him away?

I started walking threw the trees, leaves crunching and branches snapping under my feet every step I took. I ended up at a cliff, with quite a good view of Beacon Hills. I looked out on the town, my town... our town, the town Stiles grew up in, where his family lives... where I live... why would he ever leave that?

Ever since Stiles left I've been more... focused on finding him than anyone. I started going out to look for him on a daily basis. Isaac and Jackson said they'd help find him but I think they've lost hope... I read the letter he wrote me over and over and over... everyday.

Dear Derek,

I'm sorry if what I said to you wasn't a proper good-bye... but this will be. I just... I can't stay and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry... but you know better than anyone that I'm sorry. You've literally helped me so many times, more than you know and for that, I love you, so much. You help me stay, by making things interesting. Making me want to stay, to see what happens next, to see if we win or if we lose. But I... I can't stay to see what happens anymore. Because you always put everyone before yourself and... you don't care if you get wounded in the process. And if you die, I would too. If that means physically or emotionally, I don't know. But if you die, a little piece of me is gone. And I don't want to be the one standing over your grave, telling everyone what they should know, that you were brave, kind, loving. I can't stay to watch you die... I love you... I love you, I love you, I fucking love you, Derek Hale. I loved you before you knew what you felt, and I loved you after... I'm sorry Derek...

-Stiles

He signed it, it seems like him but Stiles, my Stiles, wouldn't say that.  He wouldn't just leave because he's scared I might die, I might die everyday... why did he pick now?

My phone began ringing in my pocket, snapping me out of my thoughts as I reached for it and pulled it out. I looked at the number, I sighed as I slid my thumb across the screen to answer it.

"What do you want, Isaac?" I said sounding annoyed as I turned my back to the view and walked the other way.

"It- uh... i- it's about Stiles..." Isaac sounding scared, terrified actually. "We uh.... I think... we found something... of his"

"I- I really hope this isn't his..."  I could hear Jackson call in the backround.

I froze, I probably even stopped breathing for a moment baefore the words even began to form. "I'm on my way"

*****

I walked over to where I seen Isaac and Jackson, standing over something. Their heads darted towards me as I walked faster. Isaac ran up to me, pushing me back, I pushed my way past him and he started pulling on my arm.

"Derek, Der- Derek!!!" Isaac screamed loudly, I start to grinned my teeth as I turned to face him. "You- You probably... shouldn't--"

Before he could finish I smelt the air rather loudly. It smelt like... Stiles... and blood. I turned around rapidly and ran over to where Jackson stood. I shoved him out of the way and knelt down to look at what they'd found...

I felt tears stings my eyes and closed them, not wanting any to fall and most of all not wanting to stare at what was in front of me. I forced back the tears as I opened my eyes again.

"Call Deaton" I said quickly as I continued to stare at it. "Call him, now" I yelled sounding alot more angry.

I heard both Isaac and Jackson pull out their. as I sat fully on the ground. I felt a tear fall down my face. Stop. I didn't stop. I felt another tear fall followed by another. I brought my knees to my chest, folding my arms on top of them and burried my face into it. Stiles is dead. You killed him. You hurt the people you love... I tried to block out the voice in my head but failed. More tears fell down my face over and over.

"Hello?"  I heard Deaton call from the other end of the line, but nobody answered him.

I could hear Isaac and Jackson's hearts beating faster and could feel their eyes on me but I didn't care, Stiles... was dead because of me...

**okay plz really dont hate me cause them feels. sorry it's short and sorry it a day late, just got really busy and jdhbekdhwh first day back to school today and it kinda really sucked cause it was windy as hell and I had to walk home which took me like 30 minutes and my feet sting and omg anyways. Sorry its short, I will try my best to update again before Monday to make up for this short chapter and then yeah back to Monday updates... but I said TRY, cause yenno... school and shit...

But like... what do you think thy found? and do you think Stiles is really dead? leave a comment letting me know what you think.

**SPOILERS FOR 4X11***

but holy shit omg I REALLY hope Scott doesnt die cause Kate omg like what a cunt man!!!!! AND PETER OMG WHY WORK WITH THE BITCH THEN GET SOMEONE TO KILL HER?!?!?!???!?!??!?

Anyways have a lovely evening or day or whatever, different time zones and all.**

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