Open Wounds

Chapter 13

**Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade**

~Derek ~

"What would it feel like to die...?" I asked quietly.

At first, when Isaac didn't answer, I thought he'd fallen asleep. Until I heard his heartbeat raise for a moment as he sat up.

"Why do you ask that?" He asked quietly.

"I don't know... I just... does it hurt? Or is it just a sting and then black...?"

"Is this about Stiles?" He whispered slowly.

"I just I-- did it hurt him... I- I--"

"Derek that was 5 months ago.... why do you wanna know? Do you wanna die?" Isaac asked, cutting me off.

All I did was stay quiet... that's all I could do. I couldn't say anything, what would I even say? Yeah, I want to die because everything I loved has, everything I love dies... And I suffer, but I can't die. I--

"DEREK--" Isaac screamed and before I could think words were forming in my mouth.

"I thought I did...! I don't... I don't know anymore..." A tear rolled down my face and I looked down as I finished speaking, god I cry so much... I'm such a... "I'm broken..." I whispered as I looked back up at Isaac.

"That's okay" He rested his hand on my shoulder softly.

"No it's not" I replied as I pushed his hand away.

"Derek... It's fine to cry every once in a while--"

"But I c-can't!!!" I screamed loudly, I could feel the tears streaming down my face as I look him in the eyes. "I... can't." I said a lot more quietly.

"Are you okay?" He asked slowly, sounding almost scared.

"I- I'm fine" I lied easily as I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand and stood up.

"Der--"

"I said I'm fine!!" I screamed backing up. "Don't follow me" I whispered as I turned and ran the other way.

It's been 5 months since Stiles died... and I haven't been able to accept it yet... I feel done, exhausted, sad, miserable and tired of being... tired. Is this what being depressed feels like? Is this what Stiles felt like....? I didn't even know I was still crying until I felt something wet fall down my face. I looked up, I didn't even know where I was.

"Isaac...?" I whispered, wiping my eyes once again as I heard leaves crunch in the distance.

After no reply I came to the conclusion that whatever's out there, isn't Isaac... I stood still and focused my in on the sound, blocking out everything else and focusing on my hearing. I could hear a heart beat, a very weak sounding one. Every once in a while a slow step was taken, followed by an almost painful sounding grunt.

I slowly began to follow the sound, being as quiet as I could, until I was behind a tree. I seen someone leaning against another tree, their back was turned to me but it was obviously a guy. He was wearing a blue plaid flannel and had black hair, his ears were stretched out and he had alot of tattoos going down his arm and back.

I hadn't noticed the smell that was lingering off him until I was 20 feet away, I froze. Blood and- No... That- That's impossible.... it can't be... I stepped on a branch and it snapped loudly. The guy turned around he had blood on his face, it was dripping down both his arms, I hadn't noticed the smell of it until I was this close... I studied his face, he had two lips piercings,  one on each side of his lips, and...

"Stiles...?" I whispered in pure shock, and so quietly that I barely heard myself.

"W- Who the fuck... is..." He started talking slower, sounding out of breath,  "... Stile--" Before he could finish he fell backwards, crunching the leaves as he landed with a thud.

"Stiles!!" I screamed as he fell to the ground.

My legs were moving before I could even process what had just happened and before I knew it I was by his side, my arms wrapped around him, holding him close, never wanting to let go. I examined him, starting at his face. He had lip piercings and stretched ears, but it was definitely Stiles. He has tattoos... a lot, definitely on his arms and back, possibly his chest too, and some tattoo was peaking out from under his shirt, on his neck. What happened to him? I quickly grabbed his arm remembering he was bleeding, I looked closly, his wrist were slashed open, on both arms but... he wasn't healing. He should be healing, slowly but should be, I mean, he is a wolf... maybe I should take him to the hospital... like, now.

And before just like that I was running, faster than ever, holding back tears, holding back my rage. He fucking can't die, I just got him back, he can't leave again. Trees were speeding past my vision and soon cars, building, I slowed down as I seen the hospital and jogged into the emergency room, Stiles was still in my arms.

"I need a doctor!!!" I screamed frantically and loudly, bursting through the doors.

Multiple doctors and nurses came running up to me, they grabbed Stiles and place him on a gurney. They were asking me a bunch of questions, but I didn't know anything... I could feel the tears stinging my eyes as they were attaching wires to Stiles, and sticking needles in him. They started wheeling him away but I followed, I'm not letting him leave my sight.

"Sorry, sir, you can't enter" I nurse said as she shut the door in my face.

I would've screamed,  I would've fought,  but I couldn't. I sighed loudly as I turned, pressing my back to the wall and sliding down to sit on the floor, so many things were running through my head right now... How the hell is he even alive?  Did he fake his death? Did he want to leave us all? Is that even him? Where'd he get the tattoos and piercings?  Why didn't he remember me? Why are his wrists slashed?  Did he do it to himself? Wha-

"Derek?? Derek, what the hell!?!" I heard a familiar voice yelling down the hall, their footsteps speeding up and getting closer, but I just kept looking at the floor. "Derek... why do you have blood on you?" She said much quieter this time as she keeled down in front of me, both her hand gripped my shoulders.

I looked up, facing her, Melissa McCall.

Okay, REAALLLLLLY super sorry.... I honestly haven't been active because alot of shit went down recently and yeah I was busy with that and that's why I haven't updated, but since I have been so inactive I will try and post like 2 or 3 chapters, today (or tomorrow because its like 9pm but I dont have school tomorrow) Okay? Okay. Oh and I didn't make that edit so credit to original (I found it on Tumblr and it fits okay)

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