Stranger in the Subway

Feelings

For some reason, after that boy entered my life, I cared less about you. It was as if my hope for you disappeared. I accepted the fact that you would probably never look my way. I accepted the fact that you would never walk towards me and talk to me. So what was holding me back? Why couldn't I walk away if I knew you didn't care?

Thats when my emotions hit. I started getting emotional. Like, I wanted to run to you, and hug you so hard, I wanted to tell you how much you ment to me, and how my feelings for you were so overwhelming. And I promise that after that, if you don't hug me back, I'll walk away and I'll never turn back. I really just want to be able to let you go, because it's like I'm carrying something heavy, something full of feelings, and I don't know what to do or where I should place it.
The urge to just run to you was so intense, you were the only thing I could think about, even if I tried turning away. I'd always look back.
I clenched my hands. I guess, running towards you would be too much. And walking away cold and silently with all these feelings bottled up would be nearly impossible.
So I stayed, and decided to walk slowly to you, to introduce myself into your life, even with her by your side. Because I wanted to befriend you.

And it was funny, because I liked someone I didn't even know yet.