"Sometimes we fall down because there is something down there we are supposed to find" I smiled at him. "I think I know what you mean." He 'Hmm.'ed in response. "I was supposed to find you." He smiled even more. If possible.
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I made 20 cuts. I heard Seokjin coming down the hallway. "Ara? Are you okay?" I didn't reply, hoping he would leave me and look elsewhere. "Ara!? Are You okay!?" I still didn't reply. I started to feel weaker. Soon I will be with Grandma in Heaven. "ARA!!!!! OPEN THE DOOR!!!! DON'T DO THIS!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!" He yelled. He started to hit the door. Then he stopped for a minute, then began to hit the door again. "ARA!!!!!! ANSWER MEEEE!!!!!" I finally spoke. "I'm just doing what she told me to do! Let me be! I want this! I don't belong here! I belong with Grandma in Daegu!" I yelled. I soon after heard the door open and people run to Seokjin who is still yelling at me. "OPEN THE DOOR ARA!!!!!" I sighed. Let me guess, he called the others earlier. I sighed. "Where is she?! WHERE?!?!?" I heard Minjee unnie yell. Then I heard a thud. "Oh! Is she finally killing herself? D**n! Took her long enough!" I know that voice! It's Kwan! I think I saved her! "You're right. This time....I won't come back." I could hear the unnies start sobbing. Then I heard. "I SWEAR TO GOD ARA!!!! IF YOU DIE!!! WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN I WILL KILL YOU FOR A SECOND TIME!!!!" I knew that was Minjee unnie who said that. I know I can't die. I wish I could I can't. I'm different. I'm a guardian angel to someone, or more like two people. so I can only pass out for a day or two, no more than that. I sighed. "You already know that can't happen unnie. You already know that I won't be there. That I can't-" I took a sharp breath. I am close to passing out. The door was broken down. It landed on my leg. "OWWWWWWW!!!!!" I screamed in pain. Jin, Jimin, and Namjoon hurried in. They looked at me and their faces paled. "Oh. My. Gawd." Jin said. Jimin tried to run over to me. I stopped him before he stepped in the pool of blood. "I can't die anyway! It doesn't matter!" I cried. I really want to die. I may be here to protect someone but I have feelings to! I need attention to! I exist to! I'm human to! Well, somewhat human. I slowly felt reality slipping away from me. "Goodnight." I sighed as I took my final breath before passing out. As it all went black I started to see more of my memories from the past. I saw one where my eomma and I were out playing in my backyard. We were laughing, having fun. Then my step-appa came over and began to play with us. Then I saw an other memory. It was one of my eomma before she had my little brother, boxy. We never used his first name, or I just don't remember it. "Is it a girl?!" Little me said excitedly. My eomma chuckled. "No sweetie, It's a boy." I looked down a little disappointed. Then I looked up again, smiling brightly. "Okay! I will take good care of him! AND! I will show him all the cool things in life!" My eomma chuckled. I already knew it was a boy. I was assigned to protect him when he was born. Next I saw me holding my little brother. God how I loved him. He was so cute, so innocent. That's why I have to protect him. "Don't worry boxy, I'll protect you from the evil world. I'm different. I'm special. I'm a Guardian Angel. And I'm here to protect you!" He looked at me blankly like any baby would. Then I saw my eomma and step-appa fighting. They were fighting about some stupid business. That's when they stopped paying attention to me and boxy. They were always to busy working. One day my eomma gave up boxy. I was devastated. I had to protect him and by leaving him there I failed my job as a Guardian Angel. Also, I really loved him. He was two when eomma gave him up. He was so cute and he made everyday so much better. I felt the same stabbing pain in my back from the day eomma gave him up. It was the pain from the head angel. She was punishing me for failing. I saw the head angel. "You know how much I hate it when you do this child. I hate seeing you like this!" I bowed. "I'm sorry Miss Katie." She sighed. "I have a new assignment for you Ara." I looked up wide eyed and smiled. "R-really?!" She chuckled and nodded. "Yes child. Someday in the near future your earth parents will return home. You must protect them from anyone who will hurt them." I nodded. "Yes Miss Katie! I will!" She smiled and hugged me. "I have missed you child. I'm glad you are back. Please, visit me often." I nodded. "Of course Miss Katie!" She smiled sadly. "Well you must go back to earth now. I will see you soon Ara. Goodbye for now!" I waved as everything went black. I woke up in a room. Then I heard. "I should have payed more attention to where she was and how long she took!!! I'm so sorry!!!" I heard Jin say. I sat up. Then I said. "I'm the one who wanted to kill herself. It's my fault. It's not your fault Jin. They all looked at me then ran to hug me. "Thank gawd you're okay!" I heard Jimin say. "Yeah sure." I mumbled under my breath. They all let out a breath they didn't realize they were holding. Then Minjee unnie broke. "You know how scared I was?!?! I was so scared!!!!! Why did you do it?!?!?! HMMMMMMM?!??!!? I get that you have some family issues BUT that doesn't mean it's okay to try and kill yourself!!!!!!" I looked down. "I don't understand why they matter so much to you?!?!?!?! WE are here!!!!! WE love you!!!!!! WE are your new family!!!!!! So just stop doing this!!!!!!" I was hurt. Out of all the people I expected to understand, I thought she would be the one to understand the best. I grabbed the crutches by the side of the bed, then I got up off the bed. "Where are you going?!?!?!" She yelled at me. SHE YELLED at ME! I was hurt beyond belief. She never yells at me. She knows that it SCARES me, that it BOTHERS me, that it HURTS me! "I looked at her with my hurt teary eyes. "I'm going home." I said in a small voice. I turned and walked away using my crutches. "ARA!!!" I turned towards Jimin. "Yes?" He looked at me with pleading eyes. "Please stay." I shook my head. "I'm sorry Mister Park. But I can't." I turned and continued to crutch away. I'm so sorry but it's FAKE LOVE.
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Sorry I was listening fake love while writing this. Anyway that's the chapter BYEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
