' The hardest part of loosing someone, isn't having to say goodbye but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they go.'
Its been 5 years since mum died and the struggle has been real, growing up without a mum or an older sister has been harder than ever! All my dads ex's have just been little whores and gold diggers; in then out the house which is what has lead my dad into all this mess. He can't pay the bills he can't feed the family he can just about buy himself a Guinness is he's desperate, who am I kidding he's always desperate. Ever since mum passed he's been a different person always sleeping with god knows who, drinking like mad, it's like he's in his own world and forgets he has 5 kids to look after.
Theres Andre who's the oldest ( 16) Lewis who's 15 Me ( Aaliyah ) I'm 14 My younger brother Duaine he's 12 And my sister Janai who's 7
When mum was around we all used to be spoilt like we were royalty, she was a social worker and dad was a carpenter earning good money paying bills on time eating till we couldn't eat anymore living lavish! Mum was ill for a while and we were all aware but we didn't think it was too serious until we were running to the hospital looking at her death bed.
Janai was too young to understand she was only 2, so was Duaine and so was I, I guess.
Ever since then we had nothing to do with mums side of the family it seemed like they thought it was all dads fault 🤷🏽♀️ ...
Time flied by and Janai was going to primary, Duaine starting secondary and me going into year 10 with my bestfriends, Kendra and Tess,
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I'm the one on the left Kendra in the middle and Tess on the right. My friends weren't very good influences but there always there for me. Kendra is 15 and has a body count of 4 and has a boyfriend called Deshawn he's 17 and Tess has only ever had one boyfriend and is pregnant she is also 15.
Deshawn is 6ft exactly and is a mixed race boy with brown eyes and a mischievous smile
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Tess' man, Trey is a darkskin from Jamaica with a lovely personality and is 5ft 10
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Then there's me 😂 I'm not ready to have a boyfriend but everyone thinks I am, my sister, my brothers, my friends! It's crazy but I have my eye on someone but he's a bad boy and I really need to be there for my family right now but he's just everything 🤭
