TOGETHER

FOUR

The winter holiday came so quickly, Jimin felt like he'd just blinked and now he lived in a world of rainy days and snow.

He felt giddy inside, and a sense of nostalgia when he'd gone into Namjoon's bar as per usual to see everyone putting up trimmings before they leave for winter break.

" Heads up!" Came Taehyung's deep excitedly rumble.

Jimin catches the flying trimmings just in time and Taehyung comes bounding to him singing christmas carols at the top of his lungs.

" Okay, you're too excited, what are you planning this holiday?" Jimin asks curiously, a bit suspicious too.

Especially since Taehyung almost always had plans that ended up in Jimin having to come pick him up or they're both too wasted and end up sleeping on a pavement.

" Har har. I'm actually going to see my family" Taehyung beams at him.

Jimin feels his chest bubble in happiness. At least now, he wouldn't have to worry that his friend was out drinking himself into a stupor because of someone like Hosoek.

" I'm glad. This way you'd--"

" And Hosoek is coming too" Taehyung cuts in bashfully.

Jimin frowns in confusion.

" What do you mean?" He asks slowly.

Taehyung flushes from head to toe and falls into the explanation of how Hosoek had came to him mere nights ago.

Jimin listens intently and he finds himself wishing that it could be that easy for him and Jungkook.

That Jungkook would just admit that he's just as in love with Jimin, as Jimin is in love with him.

That Jungkook will actually stay the night with him and talk about his different Anime theories.

That Jungkook will just stay...

" I'm happy for you Tae, you have no idea" Jimin says sincerely and Taehyung's face crumbles and he squeezes Jimin for all he's worth, squeezing him so tight he cannot breath.

Almost as if he wanted to keep Jimin together, and Jimin becomes worried, because is he really that transparent?

If so, why is Jungkook continuing this whole facade of FWE when he knows how much Jimin hurts inside?.

They celebrate and everyone congratulates the new pair that they affectionately dub 'TaeSoek'.

Jimin watches Hosoek prop a sleeping Taehyung's head onto his shoulder and the smile that plays across the man's face, he can never associate with the guy who didn't even look at Taehyung before.

Of course, he knows now its because Hosoek was afraid. He was being a coward and he didn't think he deserved to want Taehyung like that.

Jimin's line of vision slips from 'TaeSoek' and it falls to Jungkook who's drunkenly giggling into Yoongi's neck. Vaguely, he wonders if its the same for Jungkook.

Is Jungkook also afraid to want Jimin even though he already has him wrapped around his little finger?

Even though its so clear to everyone with eyes, that Jimin wants him to want him back?

Their eyes meet across the room and to Jimin, the world slows and everything blurs together. He sees no one but Jungkook, he hears no one but Jungkook...until it all goes silent because Jungkook drags his eyes away, depriving Jimin of his light---love.

Jimin gets up off the coach with a fluid movement, more better than he feels inside. So dark and heavy with the solid weight of his broken heart laying shattered in his core.

" Good night guys, take care of yourselves please" he says with a small smile on lips, and clearly, it doesn't reach his eyes, because all his friends eventually hop up, drunk as fuck and they pull him into a tight hug.

Also, like they're trying to put him back together.

He chokes a laugh and pushes them all back saying ' I'm fine' until they all step back and fall back into their seats.

They watch him go and he knows that his shoulders are hunched over, because he feels that keeping his head low is the only way to block the tears that claw at him so savagely.

Walking back to his apartment, he curses inwardly. He just doesn't know why it got this bad. When he even started feeling this heavily.

Its always been there, the crushing hope, the pain , the unrequited love...

It just didn't suffocate him as much as this very day.

Upon reaching his door, he helplessly fell into his apartment, praying to everything that is holy, that a drunken Jungkook wouldn't show up to soil his sheets.

He just wouldn't be able to handle Jungkook like that, moaning his name when the boy won't say it just to please him, when it won't be because he misses him.

God, he misses Jungkook so much. For more than just his body, for more than just his witty conversation, his great sense of humor...

Its his presence. The idea that he can home and Jungkook will be curled up in his blanket, smiling up at him and STAY with him.

He just wants to hold him, hold him so close and say ' I love you' like the days before, except, he wants Jungkook to say it back with certainty this time.