cheated heart - meanie 騙された心 - Damasareta kokoro

apologetic heart

the mistress pov

after a month since it happened

mingyu became a mess

getting drunk every night

locking himself

loosing his focus

he even got into an argument with his parents

so i wanted to do what is right

i went to his office, with out telling mingyu since i know this will make it more messy

i knocked at the door of his office, his secretary asked me if i have an appointment so i told him not, but to please ask for his boss.

the secretary walked toward his boss office since its connected to another room.

the secretary went out and told her to proceed

" hello i'm"

"his mistress or should i call wife?" every word was enunciated full of sarcasm

"n-no i'm,"

"cut the chase i have no time for you! spill what trash you want to spout then leave my office"

"can't you please talk with him. he's drinking every night, if not his working overtime please can you talk to mingyu he needs you right now he, he is in pain. i know I'm not the person who should be here and asking this but can you please bring him back" he faced me looking at me with no expression. i scanned his face but not making contact with his eyes.

this is the person i ruined his marriage the person i took something from. he got dark circles under his eyes pale complexion but still he look neat and clean

"you want me to meet him? why?" he asked

"because i know your the person he needs the most?" i answered, it hurts but its the truth " please"

"why would i do that? aren't you happy that were getting divorced?"

"...."

"arent you glad you can be a complete family" he said walking nearer to me " arent you? a mother a father and a child, see you are a perfect family!"

"..."

"answer me? is he good in bed? oh funny of me asking when i also had him in my bed? where did you do it, in his condo at his parents house oh!! at your house!!"

"i'm sor---"

"you're sorry, why? for what? for bedding him? for giving him a child. oh no i thank you atleast you granted what he always wished for. how many times did you do it? i bet many times since he is insatiable"

"wonwoo shi i'm sorry, i'll take every hurtful word. i'll understand if you want to hit me youre free to do so i wont sue i wont blame you. but please atleast meet him. i wont ask you to forgive me but please please forgive mingyu he he did not want this he did nothing wrong he was forced by me and his parents please wonwoo shi" i kneeled down begging him. this all i can do

"if he slept with you once, that i can consider a mistake but to hold you more that once its no longer a mistake"

"..."

"he's drinking? working overtime? for what? because he is hurting? then what about me, i was the one whom you cheated on. i was the victim of your fucking affair"

"....."

"look at me!" he said full of authority, afraid he leveled his face to meet mine

"i---"

"do you think im not hurting? do you think of what i felt when i learnt about the shit affair of yours?" he said full of pain in his voice but no tears was seen in his eyes

"my heart tore into pieces! i gave him all, i gave him what i thought was good and healthy for our relationship i gave him love attention all the understanding i can give"

" "

"but what did i get" he stood up "this fucking pain i'm feeling is all i got and this i dont deserve this"

"just get out"

"please get out" i stood up i told him my apology again and left the room. his secretary threw me a glance

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the night came and mingyu arrived late

"did you eat?" i asked

"shut it?"

"mingyu, at least eat eat. please stop drinking he wont like it!"

"shut up, dont fucking talk with me!" he shouted, i cowered in fear

he grasped my arm forcefully " he wont like it you say? what do you fucking know?"

"im sorry"

"that again?, im sorry sorry sorry sorry. is that all you can say what will that get what will that do? will it fix anything no right? nothing. so please just fucking get lost"

"im sorry, i just thought i need to tell you"

"what!"

" i'll leave, for good. i'm sorry i ruined your life because of my selfishness"

"what about my daughter?"

"ill let her live with you, promise i wont bother you again"

"then good, just get lost for all i care"

"i"

"what do you need to tell something again?" he said irritation in his voice

"i talked to him, i told him everything"

"you what! i told you to stay away right"

"yes , i know i promised but i can't stand it anymore i needed to apologize i need to correct my mistakes i needed to do what is right"

"right? you should have back then and not only now"

"..."

"you just want to leave with out having any guilt and get your conscience cleared" those words hit me hard

because it was true

then he went to see our daughter.