The Vamps Imagines

James McVey

James'

It has been months since I saw my (Y/N). I miss her so much. I tried asking her to come with me knowing her condition but she declined. Insisting that she could handle herself. I trusted her, because I love her.

Now I'm on my way to see her. Fuck. I miss her so freaking much. I cannot wait to see her. I hope she's done nothing wrong to herself. And dang, now it's making me worry.

Should I call her? Fuck. That's gonna ruin the surprise then. But I should really call her, to make sure she's fine... Fuck.

Okay. I'm going to call her. Wait, my phone's already ringing.

Calling: Love💋

Nevermind, she called me first.

J: Love? Why did you call me?
Y: I can't take this anymore James... I... I... (Is she crying? Fuck.)
J: What is happening love? Is everything all right? Do you want me there? Are you all right?
Y: I want to die... James... No one wanted me to be alive... I cannot live like this anymore James... I want to go... (Shit. She's at it again. I need to hurry up before she do something horrible.)
J: Don't hang up. I'm on my way love! Please don't do anything. Don't move at all. I love you! There are lots of people who loves you, please don't leave me! I love you!
Y: James... Please... I need you...
J: I am on my way love. Please! Don't do anything! You are stronger than your depression (Y/N)! Don't let it take you down.
Y: But they're right James... I'm useless... No one wants me... I should just go... Nobody is willing to listen to me...
J: I am! I am listening to you right now (Y/N). I am always willing to listen to your stories! I love you! I will always be by your side. I am near the house! Please, don't do anything.

As I reached our house, I ran towards the front door, luckily it wasn't locked. I searched for (Y/N).

I went upstairs and saw the bathroom lights are on. And there, I saw the love of my life, holding a broken piece of mirror, with blood coming out of the scars she made. I was too late. She looked up to me. I rushed to her, carefully taking the piece of mirror away from her and hugged her tight.

"I told you. I will always be here for you. I care for you  (Y/N). I will always listen to your stories. Don't let your depression win over you. You are stronger than it! You have me, I will never leave your side. I love you so much. Please don't hurt yourself" I kissed her. As I treat her wounds.

"You should leave me... You shouldn't waste your time on someone like me..." She burst into tears... I hate seeing her like this.

"Why should I leave you? I love you so much! Please don't do this to yourself (Y/N)!" I said, then I immediately hugged her tight. She kept on crying, while I lifted her up. And placed her at my lap.

"Let's close your wounds, (Y/N)." I lift her up and took her out of the bathroom to our shared bedroom. Then I took the bandage from the first-aid kit and started closing her wounds.

"Do you want to talk about it (Y/N)?" I tuck her onto our bed, luckily she had stopped crying.

"I missed you a lot. I've been thinking about you these past few days. I want to see you but I can't then my thoughts became clouded with my depression. I tried fighting back, James. I always did. I don't want to go, you know it. But everything happened so fast. And the last thing I know is I'm harming myself again. I'm really sorry James" she hugged me.

"It's not your fault. And I won't go anywhere, (Y/N). I'll always be by your side. I love you." I kissed her.

"And by the way, surprise! I was on my home when you called. If I was still on tour while you called, I wouldn't know what I'm going to do." She smiled. There is the smile that could make the world stop spinning.