chapter 1
" death is always associated with ghosts. it is also a mysterious one. because no one really knows what happen after your death.
where will you go?
does heaven and hell really exist?
are there angels and demons?
why some spirits still wander here in earth?
can we really have a communication with those "unseen beings " ?
is there a scientific explanation behind this?
otherwise, we all can conclude that even the wisest man cannot answer and solve the mysteries behind God's works. its like the millionaire's question. because even I cannot answer it and the scientists are still working on it "
nagbow ako at sunod sunod na palakpakan ang aking narinig. Napangiti na lang ako. Bumalik ako sa pwesto ko at ngumiti sa mga nag congratulate sa akin .
" very good ms. annabeth . Keep it up and i bet if your parents are still alive they will be proud of you. Ok class dismiss "
That caught me off guard. When someone mentions my parents. A bunch of tears always threaten to fall.
And it never failed me.
" annabeth ok ka lang? Bakit ka umiiyak? "
" ok lng ako. Ano ka ba? Hahaha "
" sus! Sige magpeke ka pa ng tawa. Dahil ba binanggit ung parents mo? "
I just smiled at her and i guess she already knew that it is another FAKE smile.
" hayaan mo na yung panot na yun. Inggit lng un straight ka kasi mag english. Siya? Sometimes....Buffering hahahaha! "
Nakitawa na lng din ako sa kanya.
" o sige annabeth una na ako ah? Inaantok na ako e ciao ~"
Dali dali na siyang umalis. Siya nga pala si tiffany. She is always there for me either up's or down. Kumbaga sa rides. Siya ang partner ko sa pagsakay sa roller coaster ride na walang katapusan. In sickness and in health kami ang magkasangga. She is like my unbiological sister.
Lumabas na ako at kaliwa't kanang bulungan ang naririnig ko. Both positive and negative. Both flattering and some below the belt. They always watch my every move. Always ready to criticize me and evaluate me. Always ready to watch me make mistakes and fall down.
" hello po "
" young lady tara na po "
Papasok na sana ako sa kotse nang mahagip ng paningin ko ang isang lalaki. Ewan ko ba pero parang nakatingin siya sakin ng diretso. His gaze seems like reading my mind and sucking my soul out of me. It feels like my eyes were glued on his.
" young lady ? " muling tawag nung driver namin.
" ah po? "
" tara na po "
" wait lang manong may naki-. "
Muli kong nilingon yung pwesto kung nasaan ung lalaki kanina. Pero laking gulat ko nang makitang wala na siya dun.
" young lady. Ayos lang po ba kayo? "
" ah opo. Tara na po "
Habang nagmamaneho si manong. Di ko maiwasang magtaka. How come that one second he appeared and another second he was gone ?
" manong? "
" yes young lady ?"
" Pwede po bang mawala na lang bigla ang isang tao? "
" huh? Bakit naman po young lady? Parang imposible naman po yun. Baka po guni guni niyo lang yun? "
" wala po. Dont mind me "
I just shut my eyes. Baka pagod lang to maybe im just imagining things.. yeah im definitely imagining things.
Maybe manong is right. Baka nga guni guni ko lang yun. Its a very tiring day afterall.
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" bakit ka nagpakita sa kanya?! Alam mong bawal na bawal yun diba?! "
" oo alam ko yun sunny pero kasi "
" kasi ano ? Hindi kayo nararapat para isa't isa ! "
ipinikit ko nang mariin ang mga mata ko. She is really getting on my nerves.
" pwede ba tumahimik ka na lang?! Hindi ikaw ang nanay ko para pangaralan ako! Nasa wastong edad na ako and for pete's sake! i already know what is right and what is wrong! "
Saglit siyang natahimik at halata kong malapit ng bumagsak ang mga luha niya. Damn. Alam ko namang kapakanan ko lang iniisip niya. And i thank her for that Pero she is already going far her limitations.
" sorry nakalimutan ko KAIBIGAN mo lang nga pala ako. Pasensya na ha? Pero sana tigilan mo na yang kahibangan mo bago ka pa magsisi sa huli. Tandaan mo kung sakaling nakalilimot ka na ....
Tao siya... multo ka sehun. At kahit kailan hindi kayo pwedeng magsama. Its either your loss or hers . But one thing is sure. Both of you will get hurt and you need to sacrifice something big. But there's no guarantee you'll STILL be together in the end "
With that she walked away. Kasabay ng pagbagsak ng malakas na ulan at pagkulog.
Am i ready to risk even my life for someone who doesn't even know i really do exist ?
