Snowflake Love (눈꽃사랑)

Learning How To Love Again

I've been waiting for her for days weeks, and even months. Yes, you've heard that right, she hasn't visited me for months now.

I missed Wendy and I keep remembering her whenever I take a quiet walk outside my house and watch the snow slowly falling to the ground or sit on my swing and looked at the cute snowman she made before she ran away from me. I cried hard every night, feeling sorry about Wendy.

The pain in my heart worsened when she ran away from me and I can't handle it anymore. I need her back.

I was walking towards the forest and went to the area where I first met Wendy when I heard someone crying. I quirked a brow while tilting my head as I felt a litte curious on who is that and what happened.

I tried to follow where the crying came from and went behind a tree to see Wendy softly weeping with her legs curled and her hair, colored blonde in the ends, are covering her face full of tears. I sighed silently and sat beside her, leaving a meter gap between us.

"Wendy." I called Wendy with my soft and calm voice, trying to talk to her in a calm way. "Wendy...I'm sorry." I apologized to the girl, looked at her and put my hand on her shoulder, caressing it gently.

In here, I tried to apologize whole-heartedly but it looks like it's not enough. She ignored me and cried and weeped a lot more.

Then I hugged the girl, trying to give her warmth while rubbing her back up and down.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you." I whispered as I looked at her. Then she looked at me and wiped her tears. "I'm sorry for throwing away the things that you gave me..." I held Wendy's two hands, holding them tightly while caressing one of them.

"Like happiness. You gave me happiness, yet I didn't absorbed it here." I pointed my chest where my heart is located with my index finger. "I know I've been cold towards you, but I can really feel it inside me. I just...I just can't show or treat you back like that. I really can't." She looked at me blankly while I bit my lower lip nervously. "Please forgive me, Wendy." I begged her as she sniffed while I wiped her tears.

"Can you change? Even just a little bit?" She asked me in a soft and weak way. Then I looked onto her eyes, colored with a beautiful shade of brown.

"I mean...please stop being depressed and hopeless, Irene. I'm always here for you to listen to your problems. So you won't bottle up those painful feelings inside your heart. And make your heart heavier and heavier." She looked at me in a concerned way. "And one more thing, I want you to enjoy and forget about your painful and sad memories that happened to you before. I did that to you because I care about you. Even if you tried to kick me out of your house, I won't stop. But...it looks like it's not gonna work. So I left you so you could not have any disturbance." Wendy explained as she sighed and scratched her head. She was about to stand up when I pulled her and hugged her tightly.

"I-I'm sorry...I need you. I really need you because I'm all alone inside the house. Please stay with me." I softly begged near her ear, letting her feel my warm breath to calm her down. Wendy sniffed and hugged me back, rubbing my back gently and making me warm.

I just miss this girl and I would even hug with her forever because the warmth that I really need it in her, no one else.

I started crying on her shoulder because what I treat Wendy is very wrong and I didn't deserve her. But she is still by my side when the weather is getting colder. Wendy looked at me as I look at her with my teary eyes and swollen face. She chuckled and cupped my face with a warm smile.