I'm Different

--Flash back-- 23rd May, 2003

Dear Diary,

I decided I will leave them.

The drugs, of course.

But I couldn't.

Ever since Derek left, the drugs became the most important thing to me.

My parents did not notice my change of attitude or that I was becoming weaker and paler day by day.

No one cared.

My mom and dad never said it aloud, but I knew that deep in their heart, they hate me for taking away their only son from them.

I couldn't blame them, could I?

So, the drugs are my life now.

I even slapped Claire infront of the whole cheerleading squad. 

She had left me the moment I started taking drugs.

She was selfish, instead of helping me out she just walked away, leaving me behind to handle my problems alone.

I hate her.

She hates me too.

After all, I'm pathetic.

Love,

Lucy.