MPD/DID nadia turner

02

the next morning

I glance at my alarm clock. I sigh,  6:30 a.m.

I try to remember my dream, that's something i do every morning. Usually i remember my dreams but sometimes i don't.

So I close my eyes and try to find some memories.

None. Not at all.

I sight, it always interests me so much to think about my dreams. But after that accident i am mostly having nightmares.

Actually it might be good that i don't remember my dream. Because that means it was not a nightmare. When i have one i always wake up with a scream, and i am sweating. Now i don't even remember how i woke up so it wasn't a nightmare for sure.

Then I realize how tired i am. I feel like i slept for a minute. It's hard to keep my eyes open. I sigh once again and sit on the bed.

I get up and i go to take a shower. When i am passing around basket with dirty clothes i see a black hoodie on the top of it.

I haven't used this hoodie for months already so there is no need to wash it. I pick it up and i look at it. I notice there is blue and red and blue colorstain.

I have never noticed this before but well it doesn't really matters i am not using this one anymore.

So i take a shower and put on my clothes and i go to have a breakfast.

My grandma is not up yet but yesterday she made my favorite chocolate cake. It is not just my favorite. So it was Alec's. Me and Alec were so simular. He had the same personality as i do.

I shake my head to get thing thing off my head but it's not possible. Maybe he left but i still think sbout him everyday. Almost every little thing remind me of Alec Ruby or mum.

I am still asking myself if i will feel this till the rest of my life. If this terrible feeling on my chest ever fade away.

One naughty tear slip out of my eye. I fastly wipe it off. I can't cry forever like a crybaby.

I shake my head again and i eat the cake. It tastes amazing.

Then my phone buzz as i got a message. It's from Lauren, she is outside waiting for me. I pick up my bag and I walk outside.

Lauren and Johnny already are there waiting for me.

I have a goal or something like this it is that i will try to be the normal Nadia ever around my friends. I don't want them to treat me like a baby. I want to be the same Nadia i was before the accident.

I wave to them and i come closer to them.

"Hi guys" i yell at them trying to fake my best smile. They change looks but then they greet me back.

We walk and i try to start conversations where I don't talk that much. I always ask about something and then I let them talk, mostly Lauren.

Johnny isn't really talking but he keeps looking at me. It's that kind of look as if he tries to look through me.

It makes me tremble and i look away fast.

Near my house there is old villa. Every morning i look on it's majesty gate and it's walls. It really interest me. Once i wish i will have house like this.

But today i am not shocked by it's beauty.

There is a huge graffiti on the wall.  It was not on it yesterday so someone must have drew it there yesterday.

It's a huge blue and red sign which says : "Fuck life, fuck death, fuck it all".

I gasp. How could someone do this. It absolutely destroyed the whole view of the villa. 

Lauren and Johnny are as shocked as i am so when we start to walk again we have a eager discussion.

We were just passing a group of boys. The. could be 4 years older that i am. Maybe more maybe less i don't really know, i've never talked with them.

Everyone from our school is trying to avoid them. They already finished their "school time". They are taking drugs, drinking loads of alcohol and sometimes they bully. Everyone is afraid even to be near them so we just speed our walk and try to get away from there.

Everyone is scared but there always are few "selfmurders" who try to get in their gang. The gang is alive for 5 years already and there was just one person who got in this gang even if they weren't in the gang since the start.  His name is Brandon Rowland. That's the only person from this gang i do know about.

There are some rumous that if you want to join them you have to meet with them and do something bad, illegal and dangerous to get in.

If you fail they make your life miserable. So if you don't have guts for being the bad one then you better not try to get in.

First of all it looks like they haven't noticed us but then one of them turns to us and he smile.

That already is a bad sign. They never smile.

He says something to his friends and they look at us.

" well Shit" i hear John mutter. And we try to walk even faster ao it already looks like we are running.

Then happens something i would never expect to happen. The tallest one of them looks at me and yell :  "Sup N.T.. " and all of them says the same.

Who the fuck is N.T and why do they look at me. First i got a crazy idea that N.T is like Nadia Turner but then i realize that they don't know my name. 

Johnny and Lauren turn to me and they looks highly confused. So am I. I don't know what to do so i just shake my head so if they were talking to me they may think i greeted them and if they weren't talking to me than they may think i shoke my head just like that.

But then i realize. What id that means i am their new victim. The person they will bully next.

We finally see the school so my heart makes a flip.

"What was that about?" ask Lauren.

"I have no idea, i don't even know how do they know my name" i say and i mean it. I have no clue what was all this about.

Lauren looks like she doesn't trust me but Johnny looks like he does. Or he doesn't care.l

Then we have to say bye for a moment because i have a math and Lauren and Johnny have different subject.

I have math with Hayden, but he is not in the school today, because of some family trip so i am sitting alone. 

I can't focus on math so i think about today's morning and about Johnny, how he is still looking at me like a am doing something wrong. It scares me, all of this scares me.

end of the chapter

I am sorry for late update but i have so much school going on and i am still trying to go to all my swimming trainings. So if sometimes happen that i will not post an update, it means i am trying but i dont have much time. So ily ily

ALSO i hope u like this story bcs idrk what to think about it. I have so much ideas in my head but i am afraid that this story will be long. So i hope u like it u can tell me what to improve.

And have a great day/week/weekend/month/year ❤️