[for you] // why don't we ~ tom holland

t i z e n h a t

(it's monday again. what a surprise-)

~monday~

i didn't want to get up and go to school. i didn't want to face the fact that i had actually made out with jonah marais. but i had to. i knew that everyone at school would be talking about what happened at the party friday night but there was nothing i could do about it.

my morning went the same as always. boring. i had to drop zach off again, but i always do since we go to the same school. i really didn't feel like talking to anyone today.

i grabbed my backpack, my phone and my car keys and went out to my car. zach was one step ahead of me and was already waiting outside. we both hopped in the car and put our seatbelts on. i started driving.

"sooooo. you made out with jonah?" zach suddenly asked. i was shocked, but i wasn't at the same time.

"you know?!" i shouted back. if my mom found out i was going to be in big trouble and i would probably get grounded for like... a month.

"yeah, everybody knows" he said, furrowing his eyebrows. i mean honestly, i didn't know what to expect. i knew that everybody knew yet i was still surprised.

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i sat in the library again, luckily there were only a few people in there. i pulled out my book and started reading. right as i turned the page, i heard my phone buzz. daniel texted me. for the whole weekend, i've been ignoring everyone's texts. even tom's. :(. i didn't feel great about what i did at all. i still blame myself for that. i decided to just take a look at what he texted:

daniel
can we talk?

me
if this is about the party, then no.

i don't know why i texted him back. i shouldn't have. but i guess some social interaction after a weekend of not talking to anyone wouldn't hurt. he came to the library, how did he know i was here? i mean, i guess it was predictable because that's where i would always be during lunch if i'm not sitting with them in the cafeteria.

we walked over to the back corner of the library. an awkward silence fell between us. i didn't wanna speak first but i did.

"so. what did you wanna talk about?" i asked him not looking up from the floor. i didn't want to look him in his eyes. he looked up at me.

"i've been wanting to tell you this for a while," he responded, slightly choking on his words. "but i didn't know how to. i- when corbyn did what he did to you, i felt bad. and then i realized that i might have feelings for you" as the words left daniel's lips, i practically threw up in my mouth. how could he just like me after all the things him and his friends did to me?

"violet, i-i like you..." he confessed. daniel james decay just confessed his feelings to me. i felt awkward because i didn't feel the same way towards him. "but don't worry. me and my family are moving to arizona so you don't have to worry about seeing me ever again.." he said and quickly walked away.

"daniel, i-" i called after him but he was already out the door. i felt bad, knowing only now that he had feelings for me this whole time. if i would've known sooner, maybe i wouldn't have said some of the things that i said to him. i texted him out of nowhere, hoping he'd answer.

me
when are u leaving?

daniel
next friday..

he answered pretty quickly which surprised me. why was all of this happening to me out of all people on this planet?

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i went over to tom's and told him everything that happened today. i knew he probably wouldn't be happy about. "listen, i'm sorry for ranting about all this stuff. i just- you probably don't even care.." i told him when i noticed he trailed off and wasn't listening to me anymore.

"what? oh no- it's- it's fine..." he said rather awkwardly. something just didn't feel the same anymore between us. it's like, we started to slowly drift away from each other.

"tom, is everything ok?" i asked hesitantly. i was worried that he'd say he didn't wanna be my friend anymore.

"yeah, i just- i care about you violet" he told me. his shiny brown eyes staring deep into mine.

"i- i care about you too-" i said but i was cut off.

"no, you don't get it! i care about, but more than a friend way. and i know this is the worst possible time to tell you this, especially right after daniel confessed. i-i'm sorry.." tom explained. he talked really fast and tears started rolling down his cheeks. i sat there in silence, shocked by the events of today.

instead of saying anything back, i just pulled him into a tight, long lasting hug. i felt bad for him. i don't know why, but i did. i had a million thoughts going through my mind. did daniel actually like me? did tom actually like me? or was this all just a prank?

{author's note}
i have something planned for this story..
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