Dear Kim,
We began talking again. I was so happy to start my year with us being "okay". It was a week full of happiness, though we're just talking about nonsense stuff, It still felt like the old times-- not so the "old time". But then, you became distant again. I don't know if you were holding your feelings back just do I won't get hurt in the end, but Kim this is hurting me more. It is painful to think that I'm not enough for you to take a risk. It is painful that you don't trust me enough to know who you really are.
The second week of the year with you is kinda rough. You were always busy studying and I understand that. But are you that busy that can't spare a minute? But still, I want to understand. Last night, I felt like this wasn't me anymore. I promised myself that I will never chase anyone and beg for their attention. But here I am, doing any possible thing I could just so you can spare a little time for me. And I don't like who I become. I don't like this.......... but I love you.
I still don't know what to do, but one thing is for sure. My love for you will never change and you have this special space in my heart that no one else could occupy.
-Alex
