You once danced with me in my driveway
A fast paced jitterbug that somehow or another stopped being about having fun
It became an emotion filled embrace that made my head spin wildly
And soon your arms were clasped tightly against me
Holding me against you, I had never felt safety until then
And when I heard you whisper those three beautiful words
I had said them to you a hundred times in a friendly fashion
I realized they now held a stronger meaning
I didn't respond, too overwhelmed by the beauty of it all
Perhaps you think I didn't hear you, but I did
Oh god, I did
And I wish so fucking badly I didn't believe your whispered secret
I wish I didn't lay awake that night after all but dancing to my room
And I wish I didn't put any thought into all the memories you swore we would create
I wish it wasn't so easy to believe you when you told me I mattered to you
That cold night was the last time I heard from you
Although I tried to reach out, I suddenly wasn't a priority to you
So I did what I could to keep my hands busy
So that I didn't spend my time pulling on my hair
While stuck in the thought that your hands once replaced my own
Later that week I was sitting at her side when you called her
Your voice held a hopeful kind of optimism
And God, I wished so badly you wanted to hear from me as well
You begged to see her, was eager to come over and let your soul bleed for her
Until she said my name
Then you were suddenly in a rush to run far from here
When did you become allergic to me? Was all that I did for you not enough?
Perhaps you just need to have someone around, I was simply a pawn
And now you've shattered the friendship she craved with you
And have left me crying in the dark
Why did you crack open such a beautiful friendship between us all?
The adventures we had all shared warmed my soul
I want to go home, I want to lie in my bed and not feel
But we have laid there together many times
And I dont want to remember the way your hands felt in my hair
Nor do I want to fantasize about your warm chest and how your heartbeat soothed me in ways that nothing else could
I want to forget you and the way your smile brightened even the cloudiest of days
I wish that you had cared enough to let me say goodbye
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Cracked, Not Broken
PoetryA collection of my truths, written in a sad tone. Read on if you're not afraid to learn another persons point of view and peer into the mind of a stranger.