passion (a YouTube fanfic)

  It's was my first time ever at vidcon and I couldn't wait to get the excitement out that had been bubbling inside me for weeks, change that months.

   I've had been in a tretourous line for hours and I looked down at my rhinestone incrusted watch that read the time 8:45 meaning the doors would be opening in less than 20 minutes. "thank god" I moaned. As I hadn't relized I must have said it out loud.

    The shy skinny girl wearing what seemed to be her Sunday best, a white silk dress with a small tan bag slouched across her boney shoulders, approached me and said " thank God for what"?

    I replied in I guess a hollow lifeless voice because I then had to repeat myself and quite entusiasticly I might add I said "the doors are opening in 15 minutes"!

   Unlike anybody I had ever met who admired YouTube she seemed quite  unamused and definitely not enthusiastic about being at such a big event.

   she said quietly and subtlety as if she was praying I wouldn't hear her "who are you here to see"

    I stated "Im not sure exactly. I love everyone but I know I am going to the its ok to be gay panel (Tyler Oakley had always been one of my favorites) are you planning on going to any panels"

     she responded like she asked the question, as If she was telling me her darkest story "no I think I'm going to stay on the floor and just meet who comes my way I'm not much of a YouTube fan"

     "oh the who are you here with"

     she didn't answer for a few seconds but then the awkward silence broke and she said "I am here by myself".

      .... I paused "...oh ok well I'm sorry I haven't introduced myself properly yet. My name is Maddie and I don't believe I caught your name either".

      "Mary"

      "if I could ask Mary if your not a fan of YouTube then why did you pay the outrageous amount of money to come here. You know it's just youtubers right".

     "I came to see Damon you see He changed my life. I had been self harming for years but my sister Ella showed me a video of his and I fell in love. I contimplated suicide many of times over the years but when I watch his videos it is like a gravitational pull telling me not to do it like a sign from the universe you know".

      I was very confused at first. It was like Mary had just opened a box of trinkets and had to explain the story of each thing in the box even down to the last piece of Grey twisted lint. yet I can understand her. where she is coming from. The struggles she had faced ,but yet I had not been in any of her situations. No one listens and I think when she found someone that would the burden flowed out of her like a waterfall.