I wouldn't mind (Camren fan fiction)

Try to let it go

Laurens POV

After I had my little moment,  I went through the front doors of the school and went to my special place.  I grabbed my box up on the roof and sat down. I grabbed my Hookah pen and took a big breath. I started to make little rings with the smoke. All of a sudden I heard a sound and turned to my side as Camila sat down. "What do you want? " I ask when she sat down. "I came to see if you were ok. You ran out of the lunchroom really fast. " she told me.  I looked at her and saw that she isn't what she acts like at school. She still cares about me like she did when we were younger. I turn the other way and let a tear fall. I quickly wiped it away and turned back. "You don't need to see if I'm ok because I'm fine. You can leave now and just keep doing what you do at school." I say and put my hookah pen away and put my box back in it's hidden spot on the roof. I walk out and go to my house. When I got to my room, I laid down on the bed and sighed. If she still cares for me, why does she bully me? I thought to myself. I don't get why she bullies me if she cares about me. Why can't we just go back to the way it was? I grab my camera and set it on the stand. I press the record button. "Hi everybody. My name is Lauren and I'm going to sing 'Amnesia' by 5 Seconds of Summer."

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone

I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone

And all my friends keep asking why you're not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me

Like all of this was just some twisted dream

I'd hold you closer than I ever did before

And you'd never slip away

And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

No, I'm really not fine at all

Tell me this is just a dream

'Cause I'm really not fine at all

"Thanks for watching. Vote and comment. Love ya!!"

I stopped the video and posted it on YouTube. While it rendered I plugged in my headphones in my phone.  I played my favorite playlist and just listened as the video rendered. When it finished I put a title and posted it. I closed my computer and just listened to my music. Soon I fell asleep.