Best Friend To BF (TayNew)

Chapter 14

Tay POV

I'm looking at him from behind...

He is far away and away and disappear from my eyesight!

Oab Patted my shoulder and said

"How ? still not reconciled yet ? "

Off suddenly hugging me and said

" Oh my gayyy " I hit his head and said

" Sh**t Gayy !! That's why I don't want to tell you "

Last Sunday , I went to Oab's house to talk about how I feels & how I am struggling but unfortunately Off was there to study. So he knows everything now . But they both want me to confess and make it clear.

But I don't want to ...
I don't want to destroy this friendship...
I know that he has a girlfriend. So, how can I confess to him ...

So, this moment, right now , I just want to stay away from him a while to let my feeling die .

It hurts when you have someone in your heart but you can't have them in your arms.
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Knock ! Knock !

Somebody knocked my door as it's locked inside .

I get up and open the door.

I think I am dreaming !

Newwiee who standing behind the door and said

" What are you doing ! Tay " he smiled at me and enter my room..

" How come ? " he never visited my place before ..

" Hmm I went and picked up my girl at airport this morning and drop by before going back to my house "

New ! .. pls don't make my heart broken into so many pieces.

" Is it today ? sorry I forgot " he asked me to go with him at first but I denied .

" Hmm ! but I just want to make thing clear with you . So I drop by " he said and sitting on my bed.

" .... "

" Why you ignore me and keep distance from me during these days ? " he asked and looked my eyes ..

I avoided eyes contact with him and he continued

"It's already a month ! you know ! I only have you .I need you . Next month, the university will be open again and if you still give me this cold looks .. I cannot take it Tay ! Tell me what is happening ! Why should I do to get old Tay back "

" I love you New " I walked near him and stand in front of the bed corner where he sat ..

He looked up and said
" I love you too  ! you are my one & only best friend . You are the best things ever happened in my life. I know that you love me but what is wrong with you all these times now ? Why do u ignore me ?

"FRIEND" the words coming out from his mouth is sharper than knife to stab my heart !

" No ! I love you ! I love you more !  I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE AND I HAVE BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU "  I grabbed his face and kissed him on lips. but he pushed me away !

" Ai Tayyy !! WTF is wrong with you ? "

I moved back 2 steps from him and said

" That's what happening in me New ! I keep distance because I don't want to ruin our friendship but now .. now you know right ?  If you hate me , you can go. I won't asked you to stay ! "

I feel the warmth on my face ! Maybe my tears falling down but I still continue my sentence ...

"It's too painful to wait for someone who I know it'll not be mine . But it's even more painful to give up when I  know that person is my everything . I don't want to lose my everything "

He get up from the bed & walk to me ...

" Tay ! I love you ! you are the most important person to me ..  you already know right ? I can't think of my life without you. I don't hate you but please give me some times . But now , pls be back to old Tay before the university open . " 

" Hmm ! I will try  " I feel a little bit at ease after confessed to him and the response is not as bad as what I think ..
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Ring! Ring !

I quickly picked up the phone because it's from Newwiee .

" Hello "

( Hmm Tay !)

" New I am sorry for today "

(No need to ! I understand )
(I want to discuss one thing! Namtan want to go trip to Sri Panwa Phuket ! Shall we go together before uni open ? I will asked Oab & Off too if you ok ? )

"New ! Can you stop mentioning about her or stop talking me about her ? Since ,you already know how I feel about you "

(Tay ! I can't cut her off just like that because I am the one who asking her out and she come back here to meet me. )

" She is coming back every year . not coming back to meet you . Do I still have a chance ? When will you drop it ? "

(I told ya to give me some times! For Phuket trip , if you don't want to go I have to go alone with her & her friend )

" I will follow but when ? let's talk it in group chat to let Oab & Off know "

We all agreed to join the Phuket trip with Kitty .
I can't let him out of my sight with the girl ..

" After all this time , it's you, it's still you and it will always be you my kitty 🐱 "