you're my colour in the dark // larry stylinson english

3 years before

Hope you will like my book! Thanks for reading.
Just want to say this is my first english book so there can be some faults in it.
All the love - larry_myShip
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She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her.

She hates school because the people there discredit her.
Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems, but every day she just get lowered with the self-esteem.

He let's her know that every night will bring a brighter day. She even tried to overdose and take her life away.

She's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed and then he takes his hand and places it beside her head. He tries to hold her but with every touch she still resists and then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrist.

Feeling numb he tries to ask and plead her 'why'. She says this way she has control of pain she feels inside. He's asking her, 'How long is it going since you've felt this way? Because you got me here feeling so damn helpless.' She says, 'it's been a while, I guess I needed better luck.' And then he screams at her and tells her, 'baby never cut! Nobody seems to get you, you feeling on your own but listen pretty lady you don't have to be alone. So baby don't cut, you can do anything just promis baby!'

The next day at school she's feeling better than the day before, even cracked a couple smiles as she walks past the corridor.

But all of that seemed to end:
She dropped her books when she walked in the class. And every student in the room just seemed to point and laugh.

She couldn't take it anymore, she sent her boy a text. She said, 'I love you with my body, heart and soul to death.' He thought nothing, typed 'i love you' then he sent it, by "death" he didn't know that she had literally just ment it.

She ducked the next class, ran home into her bathroom. Thought to herself she wouldn't break her promise that soon. Not one cut, not two cuts, not three cuts it's four. The blood started dripping from the tub to the floor.

See her boyfriend had a feeling in his stomach that he hated, he followed it, ran down to her house he never waited.

The front door was open, he heard the water running. He stormed into the bathroom and his heart started gunning. 

He puts an arm around her shoulder, he's tryna lean her back up. Yelling out her name, as he lays her beside the bathtub. Feels his whole world just took a hit from a big avalanche.

Screaming out so heavily, 'somebody call an ambulance!'  Feeling mad angry that somebody led her on to this.

  Her eyeballs are rolling, drifting out of consciousness.

Thinking to himself 'why the hell didn't she stop at will?' The tears just keep on rolling as they head to the hospital.

Paramedics rush her in, doctors calls emergency. She's lost a lot of blood, the place looks like a murder scene.

An hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face and says, 'excuse me for the word's that i'm about to say, I'm sorry for your loss..' The boy just starts collapsing: his own world, his own girl just took a crashing.

Saying to himself that it's his fault and that he led it up.

'Baby I thought you made a promise, you would never cut.'