you're my colour in the dark // larry stylinson english

4

Today is the day I'm going to perform my song for the class. I worked hard this past week to get my notes the bests as I could.

I hate to admit it, but i'm really stressed. Not because of all the stares and all, but because of everyone hearing my voice.

Nobody in this class has ever heared my voice. Not even Miss Pancake, my teacher. So yeah, I was scared.

I am walking trough the corridors at this moment. Going to my locker to take the things I need and get rid of the stuff I don't need.

I'm that stressed that at this point my knees were trembling and my hands were shaking. I went to Niall's locker before the bell rang, just so he could encourage me because yeah..that really helped but to my dismay he wasn't there. I sighed in irritation but quickly walked away, not wanting to get late in class.

I was one of the first to arrive in class. I noticed Louis and some other kids sitting at their place and reading their song over. Luckily for me, I've practiced my song for a long time so I know it inside out.

Not much later the class was fully filled and the teacher asked me to come stand at the front so everyone in here could see me.

I was the first one to pass so I wasn't that stressed anymore, not being able to compare myself to others.

'When you're ready' my teacher spoke. I nodded in response and started hitting the first notes on the piano I took a deep breath and here we go;

'I got a girl crush
Hate to admit it
But I got a heart rush
It ain't slowing down.

I got it real hard
Want everything she has
That smile and that midnight laugh She's giving you now.

I want to taste her lips
Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfum.

I want her long brown hair
I want that magic touch
Yeah 'cause maybe then
You'd want me just as much.

And I've got a girl crush
Oooh I've got a girl crush.

I don't get no sleep
I don't get no peace
Thinking about her
Under your bed sheets
The way that she's whispering
The way that she's pulling you in
God knows I've tried
Can't get her out of my mind.

I want to taste her lips
Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfum.

I want her long brown hair
I want that magic touch
Yeah 'cause maybe then
You'd want me just as much.

I got a girl crush
Hate to admit it
But I got a heart rush
It ain't slowing down.'

I find myself crying again. I see shocked faces what's normale because who would've thought seeing the badboy of the school cry in front of them just by singing a song? Well I can tell you that nobody did.

I turned towards the teacher seeing her looking down on her paper while she was writing something down.

She looked back up and gestured me to go back to my seat after she said she really liked it.

The bell rang when the last kid had just finished so we all stormed out of class, well 'we' not really, Louis was packing his stuff slowly in and I stayed because the teacher wanted to talk to me but I have no idea why.

So, I walked over to her desk and sat down on the table in frond of her desk.

'So uhm Harry, first of all I wanted to say I really liked your song' she paused as I just nodded in thank you.

'But I wanted to talk about this whole situation' she said just loud enough for me to hear. My eyebrows made it up in a frown as I was clearly confused.

'About Eleanor, you should get over her. I do know that song was about her Harry and you should try to find someone els-' she tried to convince me like everyone else had done but I won't let them convine me.

Instead I started yelling; 'You don't know any of Eleanor because if you had she would still be here. You're just so lazy to look at your students like every other dick here!'

'Harry watch your language!' She yelled back, slapping on her desk.

I just scoffed and walked to the door, seeing Louis still standing there.

'And you, if I hear any of this in the school, you'll be in a lot of trouble' I said to Louis pointing with my finger to his chest before I leaved the classroom but not before he nodded like a little child who their parents just took their sweets of.

What a great way to start your week. My eyebrows were still in a frown as I walked trough the corridors, heading to my next class.

I already knew this was going to be a long long day.

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I was sitting in the cafeteria eating up my lunch I had made myself this morning when Niall and some other guy came towards me and sat down in front of me.

'Hey' Niall said happily like his happy self always is. I looked from him to the other guy, just shrugging and started eating again, not once lifting my head up. I could feel their gazes burn on me for a while before Niall spoke up again.

'So uhm Haz, this is Liam. You know the guy I told you about. ' Niall said softly, obviously knowing I'm in a bad mood.

I nodded and ended up presenting myself as well. I don't want Liam to think I'm an antisocial or a dick head. Plus he seems to be a nice guy and I dont mind to have another friend.

After lunch me and Niall we're on our way to the next period. Niall was questioning me about my bad mood from earlier so here I was; explaining my boring life to my best friend. Again.

'And then I said they are all dick's.' I paused and laughed a bit at my own words. I turned to Niall, him looking at me with wide eyes.

'And then?' He questioned.

'I just stormed out, but not before I spoke, well yelled more, to Louis who obviously heared everything of our conversation.' I said shrugging simply.
'But anyways i'm going to head to class, don't want to be late.' I said giving him a little wink.

'Wow. Prison gave you really good manners!' Niall laughed. I poke out my tongue and entered class.