[OUAT] Captain Charming (Hook/Charming)

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Hooks POV

Five minutes until work ends
God this day has been awkward
I can't wait to go and drink myself to sleep
Oh wait, snow is coming over to have a 'chat' which really means she's going to try to get me to tell her everything that's up with me and it's gonna be emotional... I don't do emotions.
4 minutes
David must be confused as to why I lied for him but what am I going to do? Throw him under the bus. I'm not that kind of person, mate or not, I won't do that to him.
3 minutes
Last night... it was my fault anyways. I could've just had ruby call Emma and none of this would've happened but I asked for David. I bothered him for no reason. I could've asked for Emma and I would've stayed mates with David and snow wouldn't be having an emotional talk with me tonight.
2 minutes
I need to hide my stuff so she doesn't realise what's wrong with me. I gotta fake it till I make it. That's the phrase right? Whatever. It doesn't matter, kinda like me.
1 minute
Time is going by slowly
Seconds ticking by like they lasted an hour. I may be sounding dramatic but cmon I'm a pirate in leather with a hook, how am I not gonna be slightly dramatic?
0 minutes
I'm free to go
Thank god
I get up and get ready to leave, turning to leave a hand is placed on my shoulder
This is David by Why is he getting my attention? Did he forget about something or does he need me to do something?
I turn around to face him
"Hey, Hook, how are you feeling?" He asks
'Why do you care?'
"Why do you care?"
Shït did I just go and say my bloody thoughts aloud.
"What do you mean, of course if care, id care if anyone was hurt" he frowned
"I'm fine" I say averting my eyes "thanks for asking"
And with that I left
I need to get to the ship
Hide everything suspicious
Snow will be there soon
I have 6 minutes if I run
So I ran, I ran as best as I could because my ribs were hurting
I got to my ship and went inside, I hid anything that looked bad. I went to the bathroom and hid the bandages and blades. The alcohol was alright because hello I'm a pirate.
As I frantically ran around my shop to hide anything bad I heard her footsteps
"Hook?" She called out
I looked around, it's all good.
"Come In snow" I say "I'm below deck"
She walked down the steps
I took a deep breath and smiled at her as she came into view
"Snow, how are you?" I ask
"I'm here to ask you that" she says, crossing her arms "and don't try that fake act with me."
"Forever the observant" I smirked as she nodded
"Right I'm pretty sure you know this is gonna be a deep talk so I'm telling you the three things to talk about and you tell me what order. We will talk about them all but you choose the order, got it"
"Aye aye captain" I say with a mocked salute, her smiling at my joking
"Right, 1) why have you changed so much, 2) what's with the bandages, 3) what's up with you and David?" She says "now which one first"
I sighed
"I'm gonna need a drink for this." I say and go and pour myself a glass as she sat down "right, lets start with one"
"I'm all ears" she smiled as I sat down
"So, I erm.... oh this is bloody hard" I laugh dryly " I'm not happy. I haven't been for a long time and I doubt I ever will be. I guess I've just gotten worse at hiding it here because everyone is so nice"
"Why arent you happy?" She asks frowning
"I guess it's just my thoughts, my past, because I'm such a monster." I mutter
"I can't do anything about the past so what are your thoughts Hook" she asks
"They're not good, not good at all... they make me not want to get up in the morning, sometimes I don't. They drive me to doubts and panicking and they make me hate myself more than I already do." I sighed, she'd be such a good interrogator, she's getting me to talk.
"Is that why you've been so sad lately?" She asked
I nodded "aye"
"Right, I think that's enough for that, what's next" she says
"3" I say "and how do you know that anyone happened between David and I?"
"The tension in that station was so thick you'd need a chainsaw to cut it and David seemed just as shocked as me when he saw your face" she says
"Right, well last night... things were said when I was under that potion. On both sides." I sigh
"But you said you didn't call anyone" she says confused
"I lied, I asked ruby to call David... why? I don't know.. I just wanted to. David found out about what happened with gold and I in the past and he was angry at me for it, rightfully so but it wasn't the correct story. It was from Golds view. So we argued when he was taking me back to the ship and he left. It was my fault. I was being a smart ass. I think he's still annoyed " I frowned
"It's not your fault Hook, look, maybe it's fine. How can you be sure he isn't your friend anymore?" She questioned
"He told me so. I called him mate and he said I shouldn't because well we arent mates anymore are we?" I say letting out a humourless laugh
"Well you've still got me and Emma" she reassured
"That I do, I have two of the strongest lasses in the world" I smile sadly
"That you do" she smiled before turning serious "now your bandages"
I sighed at that
"Yes, those... that's much harder to explain... it'd be better if I showed you..." I sighed
I slowly unraveled on of my arms, hearing a gasp from her as I did so
"I know, Im an embarrassment" I mutter, not looking
"You are no where near an embarrassment! You are one of the bravest and strongest people I know Hook" she says fiercely "what are you doing this with? Show me."
"What's my nickname snow?" I say
"What does that have to do with anything?" She huffs
"Just tell me" I sighed
"Hook." She says before realisation dawned on her "you do this with your own Hook don't you.."
"Aye" I say, my eyes glazing over slightly
I looked at her, she looked heartbroken
"How have we not seen this?" She says to herself before turning to me once more "who knows"
"No one, just you" I say "and I'd like to keep it like that, these marks and scars are mine, my stories and my pain and I think I deserve the right to choose who knows"
"That you do hook, that you do" she says, I could see the way she looked when she said hook "y'know what, I'm not calling you Hook... I'm not good with that, it's not right for you. I'm calling you Killian and that's that."
"That's fair snow" I smiled
She walked up to me and gave me a hug
"I'll see you tomorrow at the station" she says
"See you then" I say as she starts to leave
"Oh, and Killian , one more thing" she says, I turn around "I'll try and talk David round and so should you, you need him. I can tell and he needs you"
And with that she left me to my own devices
I finished my drink and went to bed, glad that someone knows. Someone is there for me to confide in and she's one of the kindest people I know.