in this darkness you are my light.

now you are

  I blamed myself for you not being rescued i ache inside and out i'm not afraid to show that.  It's your funeral today we giving you a vikings goodbye because you were my strong one.  How does it feel, do you like the ceremony?  I planned it for you.  We sending you out to see, and lighting you a flame.  I hope you don't mind, if you do i wish you could be here to say so.  I'm tired of excuses.  I need you here, so why did you leave me?  Where did you go to.   Don't go to where i cannot follow i told you that before.  The others patted my back, and said everything would be okay.  It's not okay.  I just needed you to be a burning light that out shone the rest.  Why is everyone either dying or leaving.  At least you aren't a monster "Star" at least you aren't a monster.
So i left that only sanctuary i had, because i couldn't stay with the people that couldn't save you.  Don't you think i'm broken enough, why add all that extra pain inside of me.  I need my star, but she isn't here.  She's all i ever needed to survive, but i don't even get that.  That is what i screamed to them my star, are you proud i stood up for myself, I hope you are it's getting harder to tell.  I woke up this morning, and looked at the spot you should've been. but you weren't there.  Why can't you be here, and me be gone.  That's all I ever wondered.  Do you remember you're nickname for me wasn't it something along the lines of Jack? that's right my name is Jack, that's why you called me that.